a mountain woman
A Mountain Woman
A Mountain Woman
By Elia Wilkinson Peattie
To My best Friend, and kindest Critic, My Husband.
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IF Leroy Brainard had not had such a respect for literature, he would
have written a book.
As it was, he played at being an architect -- and succeeded in being a
charming fellow. My sister Jessica never lost an opportunity of laughing at
his endeavors as an architect.
"You can build an enchanting villa, but what would you do with a
cathedral?"
"I shall never have a chance at a cathe- dral," he would reply. "And,
besides, it always seems to me so material and so im- pertinent to build a
little structure of stone and wood in which to worship God!"
You see what he was like? He was frivo- lous, yet one could never tell
when he would become eloquently earnest.
Brainard went off suddenly Westward one day. I suspected that Jessica
was at the bottom of it, but I asked no questions; and I did not hear from
him for months. Then I got a letter from Colorado.
"I have married a mountain woman," he wrote. "None of your puny
breed of modern femininity, but a remnant left over from the heroic ages, -
- a primitive woman, grand and vast of spirit, capable of true and steadfast
wifehood. No sophistry about her; no knowledge even that there is
sophistry. Heavens! man, do you remember the ron- deaux and triolets I
used to write to those pretty creatures back East? It would take a Saga man
of the old Norseland to write for my mountain woman. If I were an artist,
I would paint her with the north star in her locks and her feet on purple
cloud. I suppose you are at the Pier. I know you usually are at this season.
At any rate, I shall direct this letter thither, and will follow close after it. I
want my wife to see some- thing of life. And I want her to meet your
sister."
"Dear me!" cried Jessica, when I read the letter to her; "I don't know
that I care to meet anything quite so gigantic as that mountain woman. I'm
one of the puny breed of modern femininity, you know. I don't think my
nerves can stand the encounter."
"Why, Jessica!" I protested. She blushed a little.
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"Don't think bad of me, Victor. But, you see, I've a little scrap-book of
those triolets upstairs." Then she burst into a peal of irresistible laughter.
"I'm not laughing because I am piqued," she said frankly. "Though any
one will admit that it is rather irritating to have a man who left you in a
blasted condition recover with such extraordinary promptness. As a phi-
lanthropist, one of course rejoices, but as a woman, Victor, it must be
admitted that one has a right to feel annoyed. But, honestly, I am not
ungenerous, and I am going to do him a favor. I shall write, and urge him
not to bring his wife here. A primitive woman, with the north star in her
hair, would look well down there in the Casino eating a pineapple ice,
wouldn't she? It's all very well to have a soul, you know; but it won't keep
you from looking like a guy among women who have good dressmakers. I
shudder at the thought of what the poor thing will suffer if he brings her
here."
Jessica wrote, as she said she would; but, for all that, a fortnight later
she was walking down the wharf with the "mountain woman," and I was
sauntering beside Leroy. At dinner Jessica gave me no chance to talk with
our friend's wife, and I only caught the quiet contralto tones of her voice
now and then contrasting with Jessica's vivacious soprano. A drizzling rain
came up from the east with nightfall. Little groups of shivering men and
women sat about in the parlors at the card-tables, and one blond woman
sang love songs. The Brainards were tired with their journey, and left us
early. When they were gone, Jessica burst into eulogy.
"That is the first woman," she declared, "I ever met who would make a
fit heroine for a book."
"Then you will not feel under obligations to educate her, as you
insinuated the other day?"
"Educate her! I only hope she will help me to unlearn some of the
things I know. I never saw such simplicity. It is antique!"
"You're sure it's not mere vacuity?" "Victor! How can you? But you
haven't talked with her. You must to-morrow. Good-night." She gathered
up her trail- ing skirts and started down the corridor. Suddenly she turned
back. "For Heaven's sake!" she whispered, in an awed tone, "I never even
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noticed what she had on!"
The next morning early we made up a riding party, and I rode with
Mrs. Brainard. She was as tall as I, and sat in her saddle as if quite
unconscious of her animal. The road stretched hard and inviting under our
horses' feet. The wind smelled salt. The sky was ragged with gray masses
of cloud scudding across the blue. I was beginning to glow with
exhilaration, when suddenly my companion drew in her horse.
"If you do not mind, we will go back," she said.
Her tone was dejected. I thought she was tired.
"Oh, no!" she protested, when I apolo- gized for my thoughtlessness in
bringing her so far. "I'm not tired. I can ride all day. Where I come from,
we have to ride if we want to go anywhere; but here there seems to be no
particular place to -- to reach."
"Are you so utilitarian?" I asked, laugh- ingly. "Must you always have
some reason for everything you do? I do so many things just for the mere
pleasure of doing them, I'm afraid you will have a very poor opinion of
me."
"That is not what I mean," she said, flushing, and turning her large
gray eyes on me. "You must not think I have a reason for everything I do."
She was very earnest, and it was evident that she was unacquainted with
the art of making conversation. "But what I mean," she went on, "is that
there is no place -- no end -- to reach." She looked back over her shoulder
toward the west, where the trees marked the sky line, and an expression of
loss and dissatisfaction came over her face. "You see," she said, apolo-
getically, "I'm used to different things -- to the mountains. I have never
been where I could not see them before in my life."
"Ah, I see! I suppose it is odd to look up and find them not there."
"It's like being lost, this not having any- thing around you. At least, I
mean," she continued slowly, as if her thought could not easily put itself in
words, -- "I mean it seems as if a part of the world had been taken down. It
makes you feel lonesome, as if you were living after the world had begun
to die."
"You'll get used to it in a few days. It seems very beautiful to me here.
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And then you will have so much life to divert you."
"Life? But there is always that every- where."
"I mean men and women."
"Oh! Still, I am not used to them. I think I might be not -- not very
happy with them. They might think me queer. I think I would like to
show your sister the mountains."
"She has seen them often."
"Oh, she told me. But I don't mean those pretty green hills such as we
saw com- ing here. They are not like my mountains. I like mountains that
go beyond the clouds, with terrible shadows in the hollows, and belts of
snow lying in the gorges where the sun cannot reach, and the snow is blue
in the sunshine, or shining till you think it is silver, and the mist so
wonderful all about it, changing each moment and drifting up and down,
that you cannot tell what name to give the colors. These mountains of
yours here in the East are so quiet; mine are shouting all the time, with the
pines and the rivers. The echoes are so loud in the valley that sometimes,
when the wind is rising, we can hardly hear a man talk unless he raises his
voice. There are four cataracts near where I live, and they all have
different voices, just as people do; and one of them is happy -- a little
white cataract -- and it falls where the sun shines earliest, and till night it is
shining. But the others only get the sun now and then, and they are more
noisy and cruel. One of them is always in the shadow, and the water looks
black. That is partly because the rocks all underneath it are black. It falls
down twenty great ledges in a gorge with black sides, and a white mist
dances all over it at every leap. I tell father the mist is the ghost of the
waters. No man ever goes there; it is too cold. The chill strikes through
one, and makes your heart feel as if you were dying. But all down the side
of the mountain, toward the south and the west, the sun shines on the
granite and draws long points of light out of it. Father tells me soldiers
marching look that way when the sun strikes on their bayonets. Those are
the kind of mountains I mean, Mr. Grant."
She was looking at me with her face trans- figured, as if it, like the
mountains she told me of, had been lying in shadow, and wait- ing for the
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dazzling dawn.
"I had a terrible dream once," she went on; "the most terrible dream
ever I had. I dreamt that the mountains had all been taken down, and that I
stood on a plain to which there was no end. The sky was burn- ing up, and
the grass scorched brown from the heat, and it was twisting as if it were in
pain. And animals, but no other person save myself, only wild things, were
crouch- ing and looking up at that sky. They could not run because there
was no place to which to go."
"You were having a vision of the last man," I said. "I wonder myself
sometimes whether this old globe of ours is going to collapse suddenly
and take us with her, or whether we will disappear through slow disastrous
ages of fighting and crushing, with hunger and blight to help us to the end.
And then, at the last, perhaps, some luckless fellow, stronger than the rest,
will stand amid the ribs of the rotting earth and go mad."
The woman's eyes were fixed on me, large and luminous. "Yes," she
said; "he would go mad from the lonesomeness of it. He would be afraid
to be left alone like that with God. No one would want to be taken into
God's secrets."
"And our last man," I went on, "would have to stand there on that
swaying wreck till even the sound of the crumbling earth ceased. And he
would try to find a voice and would fail, because silence would have come
again. And then the light would go out --"
The shudder that crept over her made me stop, ashamed of myself.
"You talk like father," she said, with a long-drawn breath. Then she
looked up suddenly at the sun shining through a rift in those reckless gray
clouds, and put out one hand as if to get it full of the headlong rollicking
breeze. "But the earth is not dying," she cried. "It is well and strong, and it
likes to go round and round among all the other worlds. It likes the sun
and moon; they are all good friends; and it likes the people who live on it.
Maybe it is they instead of the fire within who keep it warm; or maybe it is
warm just from always going, as we are when we run. We are young, you
and I, Mr. Grant, and Leroy, and your beautiful sister, and the world is
young too!" Then she laughed a strong splendid laugh, which had never
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had the joy taken out of it with drawing-room re- strictions; and I laughed
too, and felt that we had become very good companions indeed, and found
myself warming to the joy of companionship as I had not since I was a
boy at school.
That afternoon the four of us sat at a table in the Casino together. The
Casino, as every one knows, is a place to amuse yourself. If you have a
duty, a mission, or an aspiration, you do not take it there with you, it
would be so obviously out of place; if poverty is ahead of you, you forget
it; if you have brains, you hasten to conceal them; they would be a serious
encumbrance.
There was a bubbling of conversation, a rustle and flutter such as there
always is where there are many women. All the place was gay with
flowers and with gowns as bright as the flowers. I remembered the
apprehensions of my sister, and studied Leroy's wife to see how she fitted
into this highly colored picture. She was the only woman in the room who
seemed to wear draperies. The jaunty slash and cut of fashionable attire
were missing in the long brown folds of cloth that enveloped her figure. I
felt certain that even from Jessica's standpoint she could not be called a
guy. Picturesque she might be, past the point of convention, but she was
not ridiculous.
"Judith takes all this very seriously," said Leroy, laughingly. "I suppose
she would take even Paris seriously."
His wife smiled over at him. "Leroy says I am melancholy," she said,
softly; "but I am always telling him that I am happy. He thinks I am
melancholy be- cause I do not laugh. I got out of the way of it by being so
much alone. You only laugh to let some one else know you are pleased.
When you are alone there is no use in laughing. It would be like explain-
ing something to yourself."
"You are a philosopher, Judith. Mr. Max Müller would like to
know you."
"Is he a friend of yours, dear?"
Leroy blushed, and I saw Jessica curl her lip as she noticed the blush.
She laid her hand on Mrs. Brainard's arm.
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"Have you always been very much alone?" she inquired.
"I was born on the ranch, you know; and father was not fond of
leaving it. In- deed, now he says he will never again go out of sight of it.
But you can go a long journey without doing that; for it lies on a plateau in
the valley, and it can be seen from three different mountain passes. Mother
died there, and for that reason and others -- father has had a strange life --
he never wanted to go away. He brought a lady from Pennsylvania to teach
me. She had wonderful learning, but she didn't make very much use of it. I
thought if I had learning I would not waste it reading books. I would use it
to -- to live with. Father had a library, but I never cared for it. He was
forever at books too. Of course," she hastened to add, noticing the look of
mortification deepen on her hus- band's face, "I like books very well if
there is nothing better at hand. But I always said to Mrs. Windsor -- it was
she who taught me -- why read what other folk have been thinking when
you can go out and think yourself? Of course one prefers one's own
thoughts, just as one prefers one's own ranch, or one's own father."
"Then you are sure to like New York when you go there to live," cried
Jessica; "for there you will find something to make life entertaining all the
time. No one need fall back on books there."
"I'm not sure. I'm afraid there must be such dreadful crowds of people.
Of course I should try to feel that they were all like me, with just the same
sort of fears, and that it was ridiculous for us to be afraid of each other,
when at heart we all meant to be kind."
Jessica fairly wrung her hands. "Hea- vens!" she cried. "I said you
would like New York. I am afraid, my dear, that it will break your heart!"
"Oh," said Mrs. Brainard, with what was meant to be a gentle jest, "no
one can break my heart except Leroy. I should not care enough about any
one else, you know."
The compliment was an exquisite one. I felt the blood creep to my
own brain in a sort of vicarious rapture, and I avoided looking at Leroy
lest he should dislike to have me see the happiness he must feel. The
simplicity of the woman seemed to invigorate me as the cool air of her
moun- tains might if it blew to me on some bright dawn, when I had come,
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fevered and sick of soul, from the city.
When we were alone, Jessica said to me: "That man has too much
vanity, and he thinks it is sensitiveness. He is going to imagine that his
wife makes him suffer. There's no one so brutally selfish as your sensitive
man. He wants every one to live according to his ideas, or he immediately
begins suffering. That friend of yours hasn't the courage of his
convictions. He is going to be ashamed of the very qualities that made him
love his wife."
There was a hop that night at the hotel, quite an unusual affair as to
elegance, given in honor of a woman from New York, who wrote a novel a
month.
Mrs. Brainard looked so happy that night when she came in the parlor,
after the music had begun, that I felt a moisture gather in my eyes just
because of the beauty of her joy, and the forced vivacity of the women
about me seemed suddenly coarse and insincere. Some wonderful red
stones, brilliant as rubies, glittered in among the diaphanous black
driftings of her dress. She asked me if the stones were not very pretty, and
said she gathered them in one of her mountain river-beds.
"But the gown?" I said. "Surely, you do not gather gowns like that in
river-beds, or pick them off mountain-pines?"
"But you can get them in Denver. Father always sent to Denver for my
finery. He was very particular about how I looked. You see, I was all he
had --" She broke off, her voice faltering.
"Come over by the window," I said, to change her thought. "I have
something to repeat to you. It is a song of Sydney Lanier's. I think he was
the greatest poet that ever lived in America, though not many agree with
me. But he is my dear friend anyway, though he is dead, and I never saw
him; and I want you to hear some of his words."
I led her across to an open window. The dancers were whirling by us.
The waltz was one of those melancholy ones which speak the spirit of the
dance more elo- quently than any merry melody can. The sound of the sea
booming beyond in the darkness came to us, and long paths of light, now
red, now green, stretched toward the distant light-house. These were the
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lines I repeated: --
"What heartache -- ne'er a hill! Inexorable, vapid, vague, and chill
The drear sand levels drain my spirit low. With one poor word they tell me
all they know; Whereat their stupid tongues, to tease my pain, Do drawl it
o'er and o'er again. They hurt my heart with griefs I cannot name;
Always the same -- the same."
But I got no further. I felt myself moved with a sort of passion which
did not seem to come from within, but to be communicated to me from her.
A certain unfamiliar hap- piness pricked through with pain thrilled me, and
I heard her whispering, --
"Do not go on, do not go on! I cannot stand it to-night!"
"Hush," I whispered back; "come out for a moment!" We stole into the
dusk without, and stood there trembling. I swayed with her emotion.
There was a long silence. Then she said: "Father may be walking alone
now by the black cataract. That is where he goes when he is sad. I can see
how lonely he looks among those little twisted pines that grow from the
rock. And he will be remembering all the evenings we walked there
together, and all the things we said." I did not answer. Her eyes were still
on the sea.
"What was the name of the man who wrote that verse you just said to
me?"
I told her.
"And he is dead? Did they bury him in the mountains? No? I wish I
could have put him where he could have heard those four voices calling
down the canyon."
"Come back in the house," I said; "you must come, indeed," I said, as
she shrank from re-entering.
Jessica was dancing like a fairy with Le- roy. They both saw us and
smiled as we came in, and a moment later they joined us. I made my
excuses and left my friends to Jessica's care. She was a sort of social tyrant
wherever she was, and I knew one word from her would insure the
popularity of our friends -- not that they needed the intervention of any
one. Leroy had been a sort of drawing-room pet since before he stopped
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wearing knickerbockers.
"He is at his best in a drawing-room," said Jessica, "because there he
deals with theory and not with action. And he has such beautiful theories
that the women, who are all idealists, adore him."
The next morning I awoke with a con- viction that I had been idling
too long. I went back to the city and brushed the dust from my desk. Then
each morning, I, as Jessica put it, "formed public opinion" to the extent of
one column a day in the columns of a certain enterprising morning journal.
Brainard said I had treated him shabbily to leave upon the heels of his
coming. But a man who works for his bread and butter must put a limit to
his holiday. It is dif- ferent when you only work to add to your general
picturesqueness. That is what I wrote Leroy, and it was the unkindest thing
I ever said to him; and why I did it I do not know to this day. I was glad,
though, when he failed to answer the letter. It gave me a more reasonable
excuse for feeling out of patience with him.
The days that followed were very dull. It was hard to get back into the
way of working. I was glad when Jessica came home to set up our little
establishment and to join in the autumn gayeties. Brainard brought his
wife to the city soon after, and went to housekeeping in an odd sort of a
way.
"I couldn't see anything in the place save curios," Jessica reported,
after her first call on them. "I suppose there is a cooking- stove somewhere,
and maybe even a pantry with pots in it. But all I saw was Alaska totems
and Navajo blankets. They have as many skins around on the floor and
couches as would have satisfied an ancient Briton. And everybody was
calling there. You know Mr. Brainard runs to curios in selecting his friends
as well as his furniture. The parlors were full this afternoon of ab- normal
people, that is to say, with folks one reads about. I was the only one there
who hadn't done something. I guess it's be- cause I am too healthy."
"How did Mrs. Brainard like such a motley crew?"
"She was wonderful -- perfectly wonder- ful! Those insulting creatures
were all studying her, and she knew it. But her dignity was perfect, and
she looked as proud as a Sioux chief. She listened to every one, and they
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all thought her so bright."
"Brainard must have been tremendously proud of her."
"Oh, he was -- of her and his Chilcat portières."
Jessica was there often, but -- well, I was busy. At length, however, I
was forced to go. Jessica refused to make any further excuses for me. The
rooms were filled with small celebrities.
"We are the only nonentities," whispered Jessica, as she looked around;
"it will make us quite distinguished."
We went to speak to our hostess. She stood beside her husband,
looking taller than ever; and her face was white. Her long red gown of
clinging silk was so pe- culiar as to give one the impression that she was
dressed in character. It was easy to tell that it was one of Leroy's fancies. I
hardly heard what she said, but I know she reproached me gently for not
having been to see them. I had no further word with her till some one led
her to the piano, and she paused to say, --
"That poet you spoke of to me -- the one you said was a friend of
yours -- he is my friend now too, and I have learned to sing some of his
songs. I am going to sing one now." She seemed to have no timidity at all,
but stood quietly, with a half smile, while a young man with a Russian
name played a strange minor prelude. Then she sang, her voice a
wonderful contralto, cold at times, and again lit up with gleams of pas-
sion. The music itself was fitful, now full of joy, now tender, and now sad:
"Look off, dear love, across the sallow sands, And mark yon
meeting of the sun and sea, How long they kiss in sight of all the lands,
Ah! longer, longer we."
"She has a genius for feeling, hasn't she?" Leroy whispered to me.
"A genius for feeling!" I repeated, angrily. "Man, she has a heart and a
soul and a brain, if that is what you mean! I shouldn't think you would be
able to look at her from the standpoint of a critic."
Leroy shrugged his shoulders and went off. For a moment I almost
hated him for not feeling more resentful. I felt as if he owed it to his wife
to take offence at my foolish speech.
It was evident that the "mountain woman" had become the fashion. I
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read reports in the papers about her unique receptions. I saw her name
printed conspicuously among the list of those who attended all sorts of
dinners and musicales and evenings among the set that affected
intellectual pursuits. She joined a number of women's clubs of an
exclusive kind.
"She is doing whatever her husband tells her to," said Jessica. "Why,
the other day I heard her ruining her voice on 'Siegfried'!"
But from day to day I noticed a difference in her. She developed a
terrible activity. She took personal charge of the affairs of her house; she
united with Leroy in keep- ing the house filled with guests; she got on the
board of a hospital for little children, and spent a part of every day among
the cots where the sufferers lay. Now and then when we spent a quiet
evening alone with her and Leroy, she sewed continually on little white
night-gowns for these poor babies. She used her carriage to take the most
ex- traordinary persons riding.
"In the cause of health," Leroy used to say, "I ought to have the
carriage fumi- gated after every ride Judith takes, for she is always
accompanied by some one who looks as if he or she should go into
quarantine."
One night, when he was chaffing her in this way, she flung her sewing
suddenly from her and sprang to her feet, as if she were going to give way
to a burst of girlish temper. Instead of that, a stream of tears poured from
her eyes, and she held out her trembling hands toward Jessica.
"He does not know," she sobbed. "He cannot understand."
One memorable day Leroy hastened over to us while we were still at
breakfast to say that Judith was ill, -- strangely ill. All night long she had
been muttering to herself as if in a delirium. Yet she answered lucidly all
questions that were put to her.
"She begs for Miss Grant. She says over and over that she 'knows,'
whatever that may mean."
When Jessica came home she told me she did not know. She only felt
that a tumult of impatience was stirring in her friend.
"There is something majestic about her, -- something epic. I feel as if
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she were mak- ing me live a part in some great drama, the end of which I
cannot tell. She is suffering, but I cannot tell why she suffers."
Weeks went on without an abatement in this strange illness. She did
not keep her bed. Indeed, she neglected few of her usual occupations. But
her hands were burning, and her eyes grew bright with that wild sort of
lustre one sees in the eyes of those who give themselves up to strange
drugs or manias. She grew whimsical, and formed capricious friendships,
only to drop them.
And then one day she closed her house to all acquaintances, and sat
alone continu- ally in her room, with her hands clasped in her lap, and her
eyes swimming with the emotions that never found their way to her
tongue.
Brainard came to the office to talk with me about her one day. "I am a
very miser- able man, Grant," he said. "I am afraid I have lost my wife's
regard. Oh, don't tell me it is partly my fault. I know it well enough. And I
know you haven't had a very good opinion of me lately. But I am
remorseful enough now, God knows. And I would give my life to see her
as she was when I found her first among the mountains. Why, she used to
climb them like a strong man, and she was forever shouting and singing.
And she had peopled every spot with strange modern mythological
creatures. Her father is an old dreamer, and she got the trick from him.
They had a little telescope on a great knoll in the centre of the valley, just
where it commanded a long path of stars, and they used to spend nights
out there when the frost literally fell in flakes. When I think how hardy
and gay she was, how full of courage and life, and look at her now, so
feverish and broken, I feel as if I should go mad. You know I never meant
to do her any harm. Tell me that much, Grant."
"I think you were very egotistical for a while, Brainard, and that is a
fact. And you didn't appreciate how much her nature demanded. But I do
not think you are re- sponsible for your wife's present condition. If there is
any comfort in that statement, you are welcome to it."
"But you don't mean --" he got no further.
"I mean that your wife may have her reservations, just as we all have,
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and I am paying her high praise when I say it. You are not so narrow,
Leroy, as to suppose for a moment that the only sort of passion a woman is
capable of is that which she enter- tains for a man. How do I know what is
going on in your wife's soul? But it is nothing which even an idealist of
women, such as I am, old fellow, need regret."
How glad I was afterward that I spoke those words. They exercised a
little re- straint, perhaps, on Leroy when the day of his terrible trial came.
They made him wrestle with the demon of suspicion that strove to possess
him. I was sitting in my office, lagging dispiritedly over my work one day,
when the door burst open and Brainard stood beside me. Brainard, I say,
and yet in no sense the man I had known, -- not a hint in this pale creature,
whose breath struggled through chattering teeth, and whose hands worked
in uncontrollable spasms, of the nonchalant elegant I had known. Not a
glimpse to be seen in those angry and determined eyes of the gayly selfish
spirit of my holiday friend.
"She's gone!" he gasped. "Since yes- terday. And I'm here to ask you
what you think now? And what you know."
A panorama of all shameful possibilities for one black moment floated
before me. I remember this gave place to a wave, cold as death, that swept
from head to foot; then Brainard's hands fell heavily on my shoulders.
"Thank God at least for this much," he said, hoarsely; "I didn't know at
first but I had lost both friend and wife. But I see you know nothing. And
indeed in my heart I knew all the time that you did not. Yet I had to come
to you with my anger. And I remembered how you defended her. What
explanation can you offer now?"
I got him to sit down after a while and tell me what little there was to
tell. He had been away for a day's shooting, and when he returned he
found only the per- plexed servants at home. A note was left for him. He
showed it to me.
"There are times," it ran, "when we must do as we must, not as we
would. I am go- ing to do something I have been driven to do since I left
my home. I do not leave any message of love for you, because you would
not care for it from a woman so weak as I. But it is so easy for you to be
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happy that I hope in a little while you will forget the wife who yielded to
an influence past resisting. It may be madness, but I am not great enough
to give it up. I tried to make the sacrifice, but I could not. I tried to be as
gay as you, and to live your sort of life; but I could not do it. Do not make
the effort to forgive me. You will be hap- pier if you simply hold me in the
contempt I deserve."
I read the letter over and over. I do not know that I believe that the
spirit of inani- mate things can permeate to the intelligence of man. I am
sure I always laughed at such ideas. Yet holding that note with its
shameful seeming words, I felt a conscious- ness that it was written in
purity and love. And then before my eyes there came a scene so vivid that
for a moment the office with its familiar furniture was obliterated. What I
saw was a long firm road, green with mid- summer luxuriance. The
leisurely thudding of my horse's feet sounded in my ears. Be- side me was
a tall, black-robed figure. I saw her look back with that expression of
deprivation at the sky line. "It's like liv- ing after the world has begun to
die," said the pensive minor voice. "It seems as if part of the world had
been taken down."
"Brainard," I yelled, "come here! I have it. Here's your explanation. I
can show you a new meaning for every line of this letter. Man, she has
gone to the moun- tains. She has gone to worship her own gods!"
Two weeks later I got a letter from Brain- ard, dated from Colorado.
"Old man," it said, "you're right. She is here. I found my mountain
woman here where the four voices of her cataracts had been calling to her.
I saw her the moment our mules rounded the road that commands the
valley. We had been riding all night and were drenched with cold dew,
hungry to desperation, and my spirits were of lead. Suddenly we got out
from behind the gran- ite wall, and there she was, standing, where I had
seen her so often, beside the little water- fall that she calls the happy one.
She was looking straight up at the billowing mist that dipped down the
mountain, mammoth saffron rolls of it, plunging so madly from the
impetus of the wind that one marvelled how it could be noiseless. Ah, you
do not know Judith! That strange, unsophisti- cated, sometimes awkward
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woman you saw bore no more resemblance to my mountain woman than I
to Hercules. How strong and beautiful she looked standing there wrapped
in an ecstasy! It was my primitive woman back in her primeval world.
How the blood leaped in me! All my old romance, so dif- ferent from the
common love-histories of most men, was there again within my reach! All
the mystery, the poignant happiness were mine again. Do not hold me in
con- tempt because I show you my heart. You saw my misery. Why should
I grudge you a glimpse of my happiness? She saw me when I touched her
hand, not before, so wrapped was she. But she did not seem surprised.
Only in her splendid eyes there came a large content. She pointed to the
dancing little white fall. 'I thought some- thing wonderful was going to
happen,' she whispered, 'for it has been laughing so.'
"I shall not return to New York. I am going to stay here with my
mountain wo- man, and I think perhaps I shall find out what life means
here sooner than I would back there with you. I shall learn to see large
things large and small things small. Judith says to tell you and Miss Grant
that the four voices are calling for you every day in the valley.
"Yours in fullest friendship,
"LEROY BRAINARD."
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Jim Lancy's Waterloo
"WE must get married before time to put in crops," he wrote. "We
must make a success of the farm the first year, for luck. Could you manage
to be ready to come out West by the last of February? After March opens
there will be no let-up, and I do not see how I could get away. Make it
Febru- ary, Annie dear. A few weeks more or less can make no difference
to you, but they make a good deal of difference to me."
The woman to whom this was written read it with something like
anger. "I don't be- lieve he's so impatient for me!" she said to herself.
"What he wants is to get the crops in on time." But she changed the date of
their wedding, and made it February.
Their wedding journey was only from the Illinois village where she
lived to their Nebraska farm. They had never been much together, and they
had much to say to each other.
"Farming won't come hard to you," Jim assured her. "All one needs to
farm with is brains."
"What a success you'll make of it!" she cried saucily.
"I wish I had my farm clear," Jim went on; "but that's more than any
one has around me. I'm no worse off than the rest. We've got to pay off the
mortgage, Annie."
"Of course we must. We'll just do with- out till we get the mortgage
lifted. Hard work will do anything, I guess. And I'm not afraid to work,
Jim, though I've never had much experience."
Jim looked out of the window a long time, at the gentle undulations of
the brown Iowa prairie. His eyes seemed to pierce beneath the sod, to the
swelling buds of the yet invisible grass. He noticed how disdain- fully the
rains of the new year beat down the grasses of the year that was gone. It
opened to his mind a vision of the season's possibilities. For a moment,
even amid the smoke of the car, he seemed to scent clover, and hear the
stiff swishing of the corn and the dull burring of the bees.
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"I wish sometimes," he said, leaning for- ward to look at his bride,
"that I had been born something else than a farmer. But I can no more help
farming, Annie, than a bird can help singing, or a bee making honey. I
didn't take to farming. I was simply born with a hoe in my hand."
"I don't know a blessed thing about it," Annie confessed. "But I
made up my mind that a farm with you was better than a town without you.
That's all there is to it, as far as I am concerned."
Jim Lancy slid his arm softly about her waist, unseen by the other
passengers. Annie looked up apprehensively, to see if any one was
noticing. But they were eating their lunches. It was a common coach
on which they were riding. There was a Pullman attached to the train, and
Annie had secretly thought that, as it was their wedding journey, it might
be more becoming to take it. But Jim had made no suggestion about it.
What he said later explained the reason.
"I would have liked to have brought you a fine present," he said. "It
seemed shabby to come with nothing but that little ring. But I put
everything I had on our home, you know. And yet, I'm sure you'll think it
poor enough after what you've been used to. You'll forgive me for only
bringing the ring, my dear?"
"But you brought me something better," Annie whispered. She was a
foolish little girl. "You brought me love, you know." Then they rode in
silence for a long time. Both of them were new to the phraseology of love.
Their simple compliments to each other were almost ludicrous. But any
one who might have chanced to overhear them would have been charmed,
for they betrayed an innocence as beautiful as an unclouded dawn.
Annie tried hard not to be depressed by the treeless stretches of the
Nebraska plains.
"This is different from Illinois," she ventured once, gently; "it is even
different from Iowa."
"Yes, yes," cried Jim, enthusiastically, "it is different! It is the finest
country in the world! You never feel shut in. You can always see off. I feel
at home after I get in Nebraska. I'd choke back where you live, with all
those little gullies and the trees everywhere. It's a mystery to me how
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farmers have patience to work there."
Annie opened her eyes. There was evi- dently more than one way of
looking at a question. The farm-houses seemed very low and mean to her,
as she looked at them from the window. There were no fences, excepting
now and then the inhospitable barbed wire. The door-yards were bleak to
her eyes, without the ornamental shrubbery which every farmer in her part
of the country was used to tending. The cattle stood un- shedded in their
corrals. The reapers and binders stood rusting in the dull drizzle.
"How shiftless!" cried Annie, indignantly. "What do these men mean
by letting their machinery lie out that way? I should think one winter of
lying out would hurt it more than three summers of using."
"It does. But sheds are not easily had. Lumber is dear."
"But I should think it would be economy even then."
"Yes," he said, "perhaps. But we all do that way out here. It takes some
money for a man to be economical with. Some of us haven't even that
much."
There was a six-mile ride from the station. The horses were waiting,
hitched up to a serviceable light wagon, and driven by the "help." He was
a thin young man, with red hair, and he blushed vicariously for Jim and
Annie, who were really too entertained with each other, and at the idea of
the new life opening up before them, to think any- thing about blushing.
At the station, a number of men insisted on shaking hands with Jim, and
being introduced to his wife. They were all bearded, as if shaving were an
unnecessary labor, and their trousers were tucked in dusty top-boots, none
of which had ever seen blacking. Annie had a sense of these men seeming
unwashed, or as if they had slept in their clothes. But they had kind voices,
and their eyes were very friendly. So she shook hands with them all with
heartiness, and asked them to drive out and bring their womenkind.
"I am going to make up my mind not to be lonesome," she declared;
"but, all the same, I shall want to see some women."
Annie had got safe on the high seat of the wagon, and was balancing
her little feet on the inclined foot-rest, when a woman came running across
the street, calling aloud, --
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"Mr. Lancy! Mr. Lancy! You're not going to drive away without
introducing me to your wife!"
She was a thin little woman, with move- ments as nervous and as
graceless as those of a grasshopper. Her dun-colored garments seemed to
have all the hue bleached out of them with wind and weather. Her face
was brown and wrinkled, and her bright eyes flashed restlessly, deep in
their sockets. Two front teeth were conspicuously missing; and her faded
hair was blown in wisps about her face. Jim performed the introduction,
and Annie held out her hand. It was a pretty hand, delicately gloved in
dove color. The woman took it in her own, and after she had shaken it,
held it for a silent mo- ment, looking at it. Then she almost threw it from
her. The eyes which she lifted to scan the bright young face above her had
something like agony in them. Annie blushed under this fierce scrutiny,
and the woman, suddenly conscious of her demeanor, forced a smile to her
lips.
"I'll come out an' see yeh," she said, in cordial tones. "May be, as a
new house- keeper, you'll like a little advice. You've a nice place, an' I
wish yeh luck."
"Thank you. I'm sure I'll need advice," cried Annie, as they drove off.
Then she said to Jim, "Who is that old woman?"
"Old woman? Why, she ain't a day over thirty, Mis' Dundy ain't."
Annie looked at her husband blankly. But he was already talking of
something else, and she asked no more about the woman, though all the
way along the road the face seemed to follow her. It might have been this
that caused the tightening about her heart. For some way her vivacity had
gone; and the rest of the ride she asked no questions, but sat looking
straight before her at the northward stretching road, with eyes that felt
rather than saw the brown, bare undulations, rising every now and then
clean to the sky; at the side, little famished- looking houses, unacquainted
with paint, disorderly yards, and endless reaches of furrowed ground,
where in summer the corn had waved.
The horses needed no indication of the line to make them turn up a
smooth bit of road that curved away neatly 'mid the ragged grasses. At the
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end of it, in a clump of puny scrub oaks, stood a square little house, in
uncorniced simplicity, with blank, uncur- tained windows staring out at
Annie, and for a moment her eyes, blurred with the cold, seemed to see in
one of them the despairing face of the woman with the wisps of faded hair
blowing about her face.
"Well, what do you think of it?" Jim cried, heartily, swinging her down
from her high seat, and kissing her as he did so. "This is your home, my
girl, and you are as welcome to it as you would be to a palace, if I could
give it to you."
Annie put up her hands to hide the trem- bling of her lips; and she let
Jim see there were tears in her eyes as an apology for not replying. The
young man with the red hair took away the horses, and Jim, with his arm
around his wife's waist, ran toward the house and threw open the door for
her to enter. The intense heat of two great stoves struck in their faces; and
Annie saw the big burner, erected in all its black hideousness in the middle
of the front room, like a sort of household hoodoo, to be constantly propi-
tiated, like the gods of Greece; and in the kitchen, the new range, with a
distracted tea-kettle leaping on it, as if it would like to loose its fetters and
race away over the prairie after its cousin, the locomotive.
It was a house of four rooms, and a glance revealed the fact that it had
been provided with the necessaries.
"I think we can be very comfortable here," said Jim, rather doubtfully.
Annie saw she must make some response. "I am sure we can be more
than comfort- able, Jim," she replied. "We can be happy. Show me, if you
please, where my room is. I must hang my cloak up in the right place so
that I shall feel as if I were getting settled."
It was enough. Jim had no longer any doubts. He felt sure they were
going to be happy ever afterward.
It was Annie who got the first meal; she insisted on it, though both the
men wanted her to rest. And Jim hadn't the heart to tell her that, as a
general thing, it would not do to put two eggs in the corn-cake, and that
the beefsteak was a great luxury. When he saw her about to break an egg
for the coffee, however, he interfered.
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"The shells of the ones you used for the cake will settle the coffee just
as well," he said. "You see we have to be very careful of eggs out here at
this season."
"Oh! Will the shells really settle it? This is what you must call prairie
lore. I suppose out here we find out what the real relations of invention
and necessity are -- eh?"
Jim laughed disproportionately. He thought her wonderfully witty.
And he and the help ate so much that Annie opened her eyes. She had
thought there would be enough left for supper. But there was nothing left.
For the next two weeks Jim was able to be much with her; and they
amused themselves by decorating the house with the bright curtainings
that Annie had brought, and putting up shelves for a few pieces of china.
She had two or three pictures, also, which had come from her room in her
old home, and some of those useless dainty things with which some
women like to litter the room.
"Most folks," Jim explained, "have to be content with one fire, and sit
in the kitchen; but I thought, as this was our honeymoon, we would put on
some lugs."
Annie said nothing then; but a day or two after she ventured, --
"Perhaps it would be as well now, dear, if we kept in the kitchen. I'll
keep it as bright and pleasant as I can. And, any- way, you can be more
about with me when I'm working then. We'll lay a fire in the front-room
stove, so that we can light it if anybody comes. We can just as well save
that much."
Jim looked up brightly. "All right," he said. "You're a sensible little
woman. You see, every cent makes a difference. And I want to be able to
pay off five hundred dollars of that mortgage this year."
So, after that, they sat in the kitchen; and the fire was laid in the front
room, against the coming of company. But no one came, and it remained
unlighted.
Then the season began to show signs of opening, -- bleak signs, hardly
recognizable to Annie; and after that Jim was not much in the house. The
weeks wore on, and spring came at last, dancing over the hills. The
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ground-birds began building, and at four each morning awoke Annie with
their sylvan opera. The creek that ran just at the north of the house
worked itself into a fury and blustered along with much noise toward the
great Platte which, miles away, wallowed in its vast sandy bed. The hills
flushed from brown to yellow, and from mottled green to intensest
emerald, and in the superb air all the winds of heaven seemed to meet and
frolic with laughter and song.
Sometimes the mornings were so beauti- ful that, the men being afield
and Annie all alone, she gave herself up to an ecstasy and kneeled by the
little wooden bench outside the door, to say, "Father, I thank Thee," and
then went about her work with all the poem of nature rhyming itself over
and over in her heart.
It was on such a day as this that Mrs. Dundy kept her promise and
came over to see if the young housekeeper needed any of the advice she
had promised her. She had walked, because none of the horses could be
spared. It had got so warm now that the fire in the kitchen heated the
whole house sufficiently, and Annie had the rooms clean to exquisiteness.
Mrs. Dundy looked about with envious eyes.
"How lovely!" she said.
"Do you think so?" cried Annie, in sur- prise. "I like it, of course,
because it is home, but I don't see how you could call anything here
lovely."
"Oh, you don't understand," her visitor went on. "It's lovely because it
looks so happy. Some of us have -- well, kind o' lost our grip."
"It's easy to do that if you don't feel well," Annie remarked
sympathetically. "I haven't felt as well as usual myself, lately. And I do get
lonesome and wonder what good it does to fix up every day when there is
no one to see. But that is all nonsense, and I put it out of my head."
She smoothed out the clean lawn apron with delicate touch. Mrs.
Dundy followed the movement with her eyes.
"Oh, my dear," she cried, "you don't know nothin' about it yet! But
you will know! You will!" and those restless, hot eyes of hers seemed to
grow more restless and more hot as they looked with infinite pity at the
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young woman before her.
Annie thought of these words often as the summer came on, and the
heat grew. Jim was seldom to be seen now. He was up at four each
morning, and the last chore was not completed till nine at night. Then he
threw himself in bed and lay there log-like till dawn. He was too weary to
talk much, and Annie, with her heart aching for his fatigue, forbore to
speak to him. She cooked the most strengthening things she could, and
tried always to look fresh and pleasant when he came in. But she often
thought her pains were in vain, for he hardly rested his sunburned eyes on
her. His skin got so brown that his face was strangely changed, especially
as he no longer had time to shave, and had let a rough beard straggle over
his cheeks and chin. On Sundays Annie would have liked to go to
church, but the horses were too tired to be taken out, and she did not feel
well enough to walk far; besides, Jim got no particular good out of
walking over the hills unless he had a plough in his hand.
Harvest came at length, and the crop was good. There were any way
from three to twenty men at the house then, and Annie cooked for all of
them. Jim had tried to get some one to help her, but he had not succeeded.
Annie strove to be brave, re- membering that farm-women all over the
country were working in similar fashion. But in spite of all she could do,
the days got to seem like nightmares, and sleep be- tween was but a brief
pause in which she was always dreaming of water, and thinking that she
was stooping to put fevered lips to a running brook. Some of these men
were very disgusting to Annie. Their manners were as bad as they could
well be, and a coarse word came naturally to their lips.
"To be master of the soil, that is one thing," said she to herself in
sickness of spirit; "but to be the slave of it is another. These men seem to
have got their souls all covered with muck." She noticed that they had
no idea of amusement. They had never played anything. They did not even
care for base-ball. Their idea of happiness appeared to be to do nothing;
and there was a good part of the year in which they were happy, -- for
these were not for the most part men owning farms; they were men who
hired out to help the farmer. A good many of them had been farmers at one
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time and another, but they had failed. They all talked politics a great deal,
-- politics and rail- roads. Annie had not much patience with it all. She
had great confidence in the course of things. She believed that in this
country all men have a fair chance. So when it came about that the corn
and the wheat, which had been raised with such incessant toil, brought
them no money, but only a loss, Annie stood aghast.
"I said the rates were ruinous," Jim said to her one night, after it was
all over, and he had found out that the year's slavish work had brought him
a loss of three hundred dollars; "it's been a conspiracy from the first. The
price of corn is all right. But by the time we set it down in Chicago we are
out eighteen cents a bushel. It means ruin. What are we going to do? Here
we had the best crop we've had for years -- but what's the use of talking!
They have us in their grip."
"I don't see how it is," Annie protested. "I should think it would be for
the inter- est of the roads to help the people to be as prosperous as
possible."
"Oh, we can't get out! And we're bound to stay and raise grain. And
they're bound to cart it. And that's all there is to it. They force us to stand
every loss, even to the shortage that is made in transportation. The railroad
companies own the elevators, and they have the cinch on us. Our grain is
at their mercy. God knows how I'm going to raise that interest. As for the
five hundred we were going to pay on the mort- gage this year, Annie,
we're not in it."
Autumn was well set in by this time, and the brilliant cold sky hung
over the prairies as young and fresh as if the world were not old and tired.
Annie no longer could look as trim as when she first came to the little
house. Her pretty wedding garments were beginning to be worn and there
was no money for more. Jim would not play chess now of evenings. He
was forever writing articles for the weekly paper in the adjoin- ing town.
They talked of running him for the state legislature, and he was anxious
for the nomination.
"I think I might be able to stand it if I could fight 'em!" he declared;
"but to sit here idle, knowing that I have been cheated out of my year's
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work, just as much as if I had been knocked down on the road and the
money taken from me, is enough to send me to the asylum with a strait-
jacket on!"
Life grew to take on tragic aspects. Annie used to find herself
wondering if anywhere in the world there were people with light hearts.
For her there was no longer antici- pation of joy, or present companionship,
or any divertissement in the whole world. Jim read books which she did
not understand, and with a few of his friends, who dropped in now and
then evenings or Sundays, talked about these books in an excited manner.
She would go to her room to rest, and lying there in the darkness on
the bed, would hear them speaking together, some- times all at once, in
those sternly vindictive tones men use when there is revolt in their souls.
"It is the government which is helping to impoverish us," she would
hear Jim saying. "Work is money. That is to say, it is the active form of
money. The wealth of a country is estimated by its power of production.
And its power of production means work. It means there are so many men
with so much capacity. Now the government owes it to these men to have
money enough to pay them for their work; and if there is not enough
money in circulation to pay to each man for his honest and necessary work,
then I say that government is in league with crime. It is trying to make
defaulters of us. It has a hundred ways of cheating us. When I bought this
farm and put the mortgage on it, a day's work would bring twice the
results it will now. That is to say, the total at the end of the year showed
my profits to be twice what they would be now, even if the railway did not
stand in the way to rob us of more than we earn. So that it will take just
twice as many days' work now to pay off this mortgage as it would have
done at the time it was contracted. It's a conspiracy, I tell you! Those
Eastern capitalists make a science of ruining us."
He got more eloquent as time went on, and Annie, who had known
him first as rather a careless talker, was astonished at the boldness of his
language. But conver- sation was a lost art with him. He no longer talked.
He harangued.
In the early spring Annie's baby was born, -- a little girl with a nervous
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cry, who never slept long at a time, and who seemed to wail merely from
distaste at living. It was Mrs. Dundy who came over to look after the
house till Annie got able to do so. Her eyes had that fever in them, as ever.
She talked but little, but her touch on Annie's head was more eloquent than
words. One day Annie asked for the glass, and Mrs. Dundy gave it to her.
She looked in it a long time. The color was gone from her cheeks, and
about her mouth there was an ugly tightening. But her eyes flashed and
shone with that same -- no, no, it could not be that in her face also was
coming the look of half-madness! She motioned Mrs. Dundy to come to
her.
"You knew it was coming," she said, brokenly, pointing to the
reflection in the glass. "That first day, you knew how it would be."
Mrs. Dundy took the glass away with a gentle hand.
"How could I help knowing?" she said simply. She went into the next
room, and when she returned Annie noticed that the handkerchief stuck in
her belt was wet, as if it had been wept on.
A woman cannot stay long away from her home on a farm at planting
time, even if it is a case of life and death. Mrs. Dundy had to go home, and
Annie crept about her work with the wailing baby in her arms. The house
was often disorderly now; but it could not be helped. The baby had to be
cared for. It fretted so much that Jim slept apart in the mow of the barn,
that his sleep might not be disturbed. It was a pleasant, dim place, full of
sweet scents, and he liked to be there alone. Though he had always been
an unusual worker, he worked now more like a man who was fighting off
fate, than a mere toiler for bread.
The corn came up beautifully, and far as the eye could reach around
their home it tossed its broad green leaves with an ocean- like swelling of
sibilant sound. Jim loved it with a sort of passion. Annie loved it, too.
Sometimes, at night, when her fatigue was unbearable, and her irritation
wearing out both body and soul, she took her little one in her arms and
walked among the corn, letting its rustling soothe the baby to sleep.
The heat of the summer was terrible. The sun came up in that blue sky
like a curse, and hung there till night came to comfort the blistering earth.
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And one morning a terrible thing happened. Annie was standing out of
doors in the shade of those miserable little oaks, ironing, when suddenly a
blast of air struck her in the face, which made her look up startled. For a
moment she thought, perhaps, there was a fire near in the grass. But there
was none. Another blast came, hotter this time, and fifteen minutes later
that wind was sweep- ing straight across the plain, burning and blasting.
Annie went in the house to finish her ironing, and was working there,
when she heard Jim's footstep on the door-sill. He could not pale because
of the tan, but there was a look of agony and of anger -- almost brutish
anger -- in his eyes. Then he looked, for a moment, at Annie standing there
working patiently, and rocking the little crib with one foot, and he sat
down on the door-step and buried his face in his brown arms.
The wind blew for three days. At the end of that time every ear was
withered in the stalk. The corn crop was ruined.
But there were the other crops which must be attended to, and Jim
watched those with the alertness of a despairing man; and so harvest came
again, and again the house was filled with men who talked their careless
talk, and who were not ashamed to gorge while this one woman cooked
for them. The baby lay on a quilt on the floor in the coolest part of the
kitchen. Annie fed it irregularly. Sometimes she almost forgot it. As for its
wailing, she had grown so used to it that she hardly heard it, any more
than she did the ticking of the clock. And yet, tighter than anything else in
life, was the hold that little thing had on her heart-strings. At night, after
the intermin- able work had been finished -- though in slovenly fashion --
she would take it up and caress it with fierceness, and worn as she was,
would bathe it and soothe it, and give it warm milk from the big tin pail.
"Lay the child down," Jim would say impatiently, while the men
would tell how their wives always put the babies on the bed and let them
cry if they wanted to. Annie said nothing, but she hushed the little one
with tender songs.
One day, as usual, it lay on its quilt while Annie worked. It was a
terribly busy morning. She had risen at four to get the washing out of the
way before the men got on hand, and there were a dozen loaves of bread to
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bake, and the meals to get, and the milk to attend to, and the chickens and
pigs to feed. So occupied was she that she never was able to tell how long
she was gone from the baby. She only knew that the heat of her own body
was so great that the blood seemed to be pounding at her ears, and she
staggered as she crossed the yard. But when she went at last with a cup of
milk to feed the little one, it lay with clenched fists and fixed eyes, and as
she lifted it, a last convulsion laid it back breath- less, and its heart had
ceased to beat.
Annie ran with it to her room, and tried such remedies as she had. But
nothing could keep the chill from creeping over the wasted little form, --
not even the heat of the day, not even the mother's agonized embrace.
Then, suddenly, Annie looked at the clock. It was time to get the dinner.
She laid the piteous tiny shape straight on the bed, threw a sheet over it,
and went back to the weltering kitchen to cook for those men, who came
at noon and who must be fed -- who must be fed.
When they were all seated at the table, Jim among them, and she had
served them, she said, standing at the head of the table, with her hands on
her hips: --
"I don't suppose any of you have time to do anything about it; but I
thought you might like to know that the baby is dead. I wouldn't think of
asking you to spare the horses, for I know they have to rest. But I thought,
if you could make out on a cold supper, that I would go to the town for a
coffin."
There was satire in the voice that stung even through the dull
perceptions of these men, and Jim arose with a cry and went to the room
where his dead baby lay.
About two months after this Annie in- sisted that she must go home to
Illinois. Jim protested in a way.
"You know, I'd like to send you," he said; "but I don't see where the
money is to come from. And since I've got this nomination, I want to run
as well as I can. My friends expect me to do my best for them. It's a duty,
you know, and nothing less, for a few men, like me, to get in the
legislature. We're going to get a railroad bill through this session that will
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straighten out a good many things. Be patient a little longer, Annie."
"I want to go home," was the only reply he got. "You must get the
money, some way, for me to go home with."
"I haven't paid a cent of interest yet," he cried angrily. "I don't see what
you mean by being so unreasonable!"
"You must get the money, some way," she reiterated.
He did not speak to her for a week, ex- cept when he was obliged to.
But she did not seem to mind; and he gave her the money. He took her to
the train in the little wagon that had met her when she first came. At the
station, some women were gossiping excitedly, and Annie asked what they
were saying.
"It's Mis' Dundy," they said. "She's been sent to th' insane asylum at
Lincoln. She's gone stark mad. All she said on the way out was, 'Th' butter
won't come! Th' butter won't come!'" Then they laughed a little -- a
strange laugh; and Annie thought of a drinking-song she had once heard,
"Here's to the next who dies."
Ten days after this Jim got a letter from her. "I am never coming back,
Jim," it said. "It is hopeless. I don't think I would mind standing still to
be shot down if there was any good in it. But I'm not going back there to
work harder than any slave for those money-loaners and the rail- roads. I
guess they can all get along with- out me. And I am sure I can get along
without them. I do not think this will make you feel very bad. You
haven't seemed to notice me very much lately when I've been around, and
I do not think you will notice very much when I am gone. I know what
this means. I know I am breaking my word when I leave you. But
remember, it is not you I leave, but the soil, Jim! I will not be its slave any
longer. If you care to come for me here, and live another life -- but no,
there would be no use. Our love, like our toil, has been eaten up by those
rapacious acres. Let us say good- by."
Jim sat all night with this letter in his hand. Sometimes he dozed
heavily in his chair. But he did not go to bed; and the next morning he
hitched up his horses and rode to town. He went to the bank which held
his notes.
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"I'll confess judgment as soon as you like," he said. "It's all up with
me."
It was done as quickly as the law would allow. And the things in the
house were sold by auction. All the farmers were there with their wives. It
made quite an outing for them. Jim moved around impassively, and
chatted, now and then, with some of the men about what the horses ought
to bring.
The auctioneer was a clever fellow. Be- tween the putting up of the
articles, he sang comic songs, and the funnier the song, the livelier the
bidding that followed. The horses brought a decent price, and the ma-
chinery a disappointing one; and then, after a delicious snatch about Nell
who rode the sway-backed mare at the county fair, he got down to the
furniture, -- the furniture which Jim had bought when he was expect- ing
Annie.
Jim was walking around with his hands in his pockets, looking
unconcerned, and, as the furniture began to go off, he came and sat down
in the midst of it. Every one noticed his indifference. Some of them said
that after all he couldn't have been very ambitious. He didn't seem to take
his failure much to heart. Every one was concentrating attention on the
cooking- stove, when Jim leaned forward, quickly, over a little wicker
work-stand.
There was a bit of unfinished sewing there, and it fell out as he lifted
the cover. It was a baby's linen shirt. Jim let it lie, and then lifted from its
receptacle a silver thimble. He put it in his vest-pocket.
The campaign came on shortly after this, and Jim Lancy was defeated.
"I'm going to Omaha," said he to the station-master, "and I've got just
enough to buy a ticket with. There's a kind of satisfaction in giv- ing the
last cent I have to the railroads."
Two months later, a "plain drunk" was registered at the station in
Nebraska's me- tropolis. When they searched him they found nothing in
his pockets but a silver thimble, and Joe Benson, the policeman who had
brought in the "drunk," gave it to the matron, with his compliments. But
she, when no one noticed, went softly to where the man was sleeping, and
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slipped it back into his pocket, with a sigh. For she knew somehow -- as
women do know things -- that he had not stolen that thimble.
THE equinoctial line itself is not more imaginary than the line which
divided the estates of the three Johns. The herds of the three Johns roamed
at will, and nibbled the short grass far and near without let or hindrance;
and the three Johns them- selves were utterly indifferent as to boun- dary
lines. Each of them had filed his application at the office of the
government land-agent; each was engaged in the tedious task of "proving
up;" and each owned one-third of the L-shaped cabin which stood at the
point where the three ranches touched. The hundred and sixty acres which
would have completed this quadrangle had not yet been "taken up."
The three Johns were not anxious to have a neighbor. Indeed, they had
made up their minds that if one appeared on that adjoining "hun'erd an'
sixty," it would go hard with him. For they did not deal in justice very
much -- the three Johns. They considered it effete. It belonged in the
East along with other outgrown supersti- tions. And they had given it out
widely that it would be healthier for land applicants to give them elbow-
room. It took a good many miles of sunburnt prairie to afford elbow-room
for the three Johns.
They met by accident in Hamilton at the land-office. John Henderson,
fresh from Cincinnati, manifestly unused to the ways of the country,
looked at John Gillispie with a lurking smile. Gillispie wore a sombrero,
fresh, white, and expansive. His boots had high heels, and were of elegant
leather and finely arched at the instep. His corduroys disappeared in them
half-way up the thigh. About his waist a sash of blue held a laced shirt of
the same color in place. Hender- son puffed at his cigarette, and continued
to look a trifle quizzical.
Suddenly Gillispie walked up to him and said, in a voice of complete
suavity, "Damn yeh, smoke a pipe!"
"Eh?" said Henderson, stupidly.
"Smoke a pipe," said the other. "That thing you have is bad for your
complexion."
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"I can take care of my complexion," said Henderson, firmly.
The two looked each other straight in the eye.
"You don't go on smoking that thing till you have apologized for that
grin you had on your phiz a moment ago."
"I laugh when I please, and I smoke what I please," said Henderson,
hotly, his face flaming as he realized that he was in for his first "row."
That was how it began. How it would have ended is not known --
probably there would have been only one John -- if it had not been for the
almost miraculous appear- ance at this moment of the third John. For just
then the two belligerents found them- selves prostrate, their pistols only
half-cocked, and between them stood a man all gnarled and squat, like one
of those wind-torn oaks which grow on the arid heights. He was no older
than the others, but the lines in his face were deep, and his large mouth
twitched as he said: --
"Hold on here, yeh fools! There's too much blood in you to spill. You'll
spile th' floor, and waste good stuff. We need blood out here!"
Gillispie bounced to his feet. Henderson arose suspiciously, keeping
his eyes on his assailants.
"Oh, get up!" cried the intercessor. "We don't shoot men hereabouts till
they git on their feet in fightin' trim."
"What do you know about what we do here?" interrupted Gillispie.
"This is the first time I ever saw you around."
"That's so," the other admitted. "I'm just down from Montana. Came to
take up a quarter section. Where I come from we give men a show, an' I
thought perhaps yeh did th' same here."
"Why, yes," admitted Gillispie, "we do. But I don't want folks to laugh
too much -- not when I'm around -- unless they tell me what the joke is. I
was just mentioning it to the gentleman," he added, dryly.
"So I saw," said the other; "you're kind a emphatic in yer remarks. Yeh
ought to give the gentleman a chance to git used to the ways of th' country.
He'll be as tough as th' rest of us if you'll give him a chance. I kin see it in
him."
"Thank you," said Henderson. "I'm glad you do me justice. I wish you
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wouldn't let daylight through me till I've had a chance to get my quarter
section. I'm going to be one of you, either as a live man or a corpse. But I
prefer a hundred and sixty acres of land to six feet of it."
"There, now!" triumphantly cried the squat man. "Didn't I tell yeh?
Give him a show! 'Tain't no fault of his that he's a tenderfoot. He'll get
over that."
Gillispie shook hands with first one and then the other of the men. "It's
a square deal from this on," he said. "Come and have a drink."
That's how they met -- John Henderson, John Gillispie, and John Waite.
And a week later they were putting up a shanty together for common use,
which overlapped each of their reservations, and satisfied the law with its
sociable subterfuge.
The life wasn't bad, Henderson decided; and he adopted all the ways of
the country in an astonishingly short space of time. There was a freedom
about it all which was certainly complete. The three alternated in the night
watch. Once a week one of them went to town for provisions. They were
not good at the making of bread, so they contented themselves with hot
cakes. Then there was salt pork for a staple, and prunes. They slept in
straw-lined bunks, with warm blankets for a covering. They made a point
of bringing reading-matter back from town every week, and there were
always cards to fall back on, and Waite sang songs for them with natural
dramatic talent.
Nevertheless, in spite of their content- ment, none of them was sorry
when the opportunity offered for going to town. There was always a bit of
stirring gossip to be picked up, and now and then there was a "show" at
the "opera-house," in which, it is almost unnecessary to say, no opera had
ever been sung. Then there was the hotel, at which one not only got good
fare, but a chat with the three daughters of Jim O'Neal, the proprietor --
girls with the acci- dent of two Irish parents, who were, not- withstanding,
as typically American as they well could be. A half-hour's talk with these
cheerful young women was all the more to be desired for the reason that
within riding distance of the three Johns' ranch there were only two other
women. One was Minerva Fitch, who had gone out from Michigan
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accompanied by an oil-stove and a knowl- edge of the English grammar,
with the intention of teaching school, but who had been unable to carry
these good intentions into execution for the reason that there were no
children to teach, -- at least, none but Bow-legged Joe. He was a sad little
fellow, who looked like a prairie-dog, and who had very much the same
sort of an outlook on life. The other woman was the brisk and efficient
wife of Mr. Bill Deems, of "Missourah." Mr. Deems had never in his life
done any- thing, not even so much as bring in a basket of buffalo chips to
supply the scanty fire. That is to say, he had done nothing strictly
utilitarian. Yet he filled his place. He was the most accomplished story-
teller in the whole valley, and this accomplishment of his was held in as
high esteem as the improvisa- tions of a Welsh minstrel were among his
reverencing people. His wife alone depre- cated his skill, and interrupted
his spirited narratives with sarcastic allusions concerning the empty
cupboard, and the "state of her back," to which, as she confided to any
who would listen, "there was not a rag fit to wear."
These two ladies had not, as may be surmised, any particular attraction
for John Henderson. Truth to tell, Henderson had not come West with the
intention of lik- ing women, but rather with a determina- tion to see and
think as little of them as possible. Yet even the most confirmed
misogynist must admit that it is a good thing to see a woman now and then,
and for this reason Henderson found it amusing to converse with the
amiable Misses O'Neal. At twenty-five one cannot be unyielding in one's
avoidance of the sex.
Henderson, with his pony at a fine lope, was on his way to town one
day, in that comfortable frame of mind adduced by an absence of any ideas
whatever, when he suddenly became conscious of a shiver that seemed to
run from his legs to the pony, and back again. The animal gave a startled
leap, and lifted his ears. There was a stir- ring in the coarse grasses; the
sky, which a moment before had been like sapphire, dulled with an
indescribable grayness.
Then came a little singing afar off, as if from a distant convocation of
cicadæ, and before Henderson could guess what it meant, a cloud of
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dust was upon him, blinding and bewildering, pricking with sharp particles
at eyes and nostrils. The pony was an ugly fellow, and when Henderson
felt him put his forefeet together, he knew what that meant, and braced
himself for the struggle. But it was useless; he had not yet acquired the
knack of staying on the back of a bucking bronco, and the next moment he
was on the ground, and around him whirled that saffron chaos of dust. The
temperature lowered every moment. Henderson in- stinctively felt that
this was but the begin- ning of the storm. He picked himself up without
useless regrets for his pony, and made his way on.
The saffron hue turned to blackness, and then out of the murk shot a
living green ball of fire, and ploughed into the earth. Then sheets of water,
that seemed to come simultaneously from earth and sky, swept the prairie,
and in the midst of it struggled Henderson, weak as a little child, half
bereft of sense by the strange numbness of head and dullness of eye.
Another of those green balls fell and burst, as it actually appeared to him,
before his horrified eyes, and the bellow and blare of the explosion made
him cry out in a madness of fright and physical pain. In the illumination he
had seen a cabin only a few feet in front of him, and toward it he made
frantically, with an ani- mal's instinctive desire for shelter.
The door did not yield at once to his pressure, and in the panic of his
fear he threw his weight against it. There was a cry from within, a fall, and
Henderson flung himself in the cabin and closed the door.
In the dusk of the storm he saw a woman half prostrate. It was she
whom he had pushed from the door. He caught the hook in its staple, and
turned to raise her. She was not trembling as much as he, but, like himself,
she was dizzy with the shock of the lightning. In the midst of all the
clamor Henderson heard a shrill crying, and looking toward the side of the
room, he dimly perceived three tiny forms crouched in one of the bunks.
The woman took the smallest of the children in her arms, and kissed and
soothed it; and Henderson, after he had thrown a blanket at the bottom of
the door to keep out the drifting rain, sat with his back to it, bracing it
against the wind, lest the frail staple should give way. He managed some
way to reach out and lay hold of the other little ones, and got them in his
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arms, -- a boy, so tiny he seemed hardly human, and a girl somewhat
sturdier. They cuddled in his arms, and clutched his clothes with their
frantic little hands, and the three sat so while the earth and the heavens
seemed to be meeting in angry combat.
And back and forth, back and forth, in the dimness swayed the body of
the woman, hushing her babe.
Almost as suddenly as the darkness had fallen, it lifted. The lightning
ceased to threaten, and almost frolicked, -- little way- ward flashes of
white and yellow dancing in mid-air. The wind wailed less frequently, like
a child who sobs in its sleep. And at last Henderson could make his voice
heard.
"Is there anything to build a fire with?" he shouted. "The children are
shiver- ing so."
The woman pointed to a basket of buffalo chips in the corner, and he
wrapped his little companions up in a blanket while he made a fire in the
cooking-stove. The baby was sleeping by this time, and the woman began
tidying the cabin, and when the fire was burning brightly, she put some
coffee on.
"I wish I had some clothes to offer you," she said, when the wind had
subsided suffi- ciently to make talking possible. "I'm afraid you'll have
to let them get dry on you."
"Oh, that's of no consequence at all! We're lucky to get off with our
lives. I never saw anything so terrible. Fancy! half an hour ago it was
summer; now it is winter!"
"It seems rather sudden when you're not used to it," the woman
admitted. "I've lived in the West six years now; you can't frighten me any
more. We never die out here before our time comes."
"You seem to know that I haven't been here long," said Henderson,
with some chagrin.
"Yes," admitted the woman; "you have the ear-marks of a man from
the East."
She was a tall woman, with large blue eyes, and a remarkable quantity
of yellow hair braided on top of her head. Her gown was of calico, of such
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a pattern as a widow might wear.
"I haven't been out of town a week yet," she said. "We're not half
settled. Not having any one to help makes it harder; and the baby is
rather fretful."
"But you're not alone with all these little codgers?" cried Henderson,
in dismay.
The woman turned toward him with a sort of defiance. "Yes, I am,"
she said; "and I'm as strong as a horse, and I mean to get through all right.
Here were the three children in my arms, you may say, and no way to get
in a cent. I wasn't going to stand it just to please other folk. I said, let them
talk if they want to, but I'm going to hold down a claim, and be
accumulating something while the children are getting up a bit. Oh, I'm
not afraid!"
In spite of this bold assertion of bravery, there was a sort of break in
her voice. She was putting dishes on the table as she talked, and turned
some ham in the skillet, and got the children up before the fire, and
dropped some eggs in water, -- all with a rapidity that bewildered
Henderson.
"How long have you been alone?" he asked, softly.
"Three months before baby was born, and he's five months old now. I -
- I -- you think I can get on here, don't you? There was nothing else to do."
She was folding another blanket over the sleeping baby now, and the
action brought to her guest the recollection of a thousand tender moments
of his dimly remembered youth.
"You'll get on if we have anything to do with it," he cried, suppressing
an oath with difficulty, just from pure emotion.
And he told her about the three Johns' ranch, and found it was only
three miles distant, and that both were on the same road; only her cabin,
having been put up during the past week, had of course been unknown to
him. So it ended in a sort of compact that they were to help each other in
such ways as they could. Meanwhile the fire got genial, and the coffee
filled the cabin with its comfortable scent, and all of them ate together
quite merrily, Henderson cut- ting up the ham for the youngsters; and he
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told how he chanced to come out; and she entertained him with stories of
what she thought at first when she was brought a bride to Hamilton, the
adjacent village, and convulsed him with stories of the people, whom she
saw with humorous eyes.
Henderson marvelled how she could in those few minutes have
rescued the cabin from the desolation in which the storm had plunged it.
Out of the window he could see the stricken grasses dripping cold moist-
ure, and the sky still angrily plunging for- ward like a disturbed sea. Not a
tree or a house broke the view. The desolation of it swept over him as it
never had before. But within the little ones were chattering to themselves
in odd baby dialect, and the mother was laughing with them.
"Women aren't always useless," she said, at parting; "and you tell your
chums that when they get hungry for a slice of home- made bread they can
get it here. And the next time they go by, I want them to stop in and look at
the children. It'll do them good. They may think they won't enjoy
themselves, but they will."
"Oh, I'll answer for that!" cried he, shaking hands with her. "I'll tell
them we have just the right sort of a neighbor."
"Thank you," said she, heartily. "And you may tell them that her name
is Cathe- rine Ford."
Once at home, he told his story.
"H'm!" said Gillispie, "I guess I'll have to go to town myself to-
morrow."
Henderson looked at him blackly. "She's a woman alone, Gillispie,"
said he, severely, "trying to make her way with handicaps -- "
"Shet up, can't ye, ye darned fool?" roared Gillispie. "What do yeh
take me fur?"
Waite was putting on his rubber coat preparatory to going out for his
night with the cattle. "Guess you're makin' a mistake, my boy," he said,
gently. "There ain't no danger of any woman bein' treated rude in these
parts."
"I know it, by Jove!" cried Henderson, in quick contriteness.
"All right," grunted Gillispie, in tacit acceptance of this apology. "I
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guess you thought you was in civilized parts."
Two days after this Waite came in late to his supper. "Well, I seen
her," he announced.
"Oh! did you?" cried Henderson, know- ing perfectly well whom he
meant. "What was she doing?"
"Killin' snakes, b'gosh! She says th' baby's crazy fur um, an' so she
takes aroun' a hoe on her shoulder wherever she goes, an' when she sees a
snake, she has it out with 'im then an' there. I says to 'er, 'Yer don't expec' t'
git all th' snakes outen this here country, d' yeh?' 'Well,' she says, 'I'm as
good a man as St. Patrick any day.' She is a jolly one, Henderson. She tuk
me in an' showed me th' kids, and give me a loaf of gingerbread to bring
home. Here it is; see?"
"Hu!" said Gillispie. "I'm not in it." But for all of his scorn he was not
above eating the gingerbread.
It was gardening time, and the three Johns were putting in every spare
moment in the little paling made of willow twigs behind the house. It
was little enough time they had, though, for the cattle were new to each
other and to the country, and they were hard to manage. It was generally
conceded that Waite had a genius for herd- ing, and he could take the
"mad" out of a fractious animal in a way that the others looked on as little
less than superhuman. Thus it was that one day, when the clay had been
well turned, and the seeds arranged on the kitchen table, and all things
prepared for an afternoon of busy planting, that Waite and Henderson, who
were needed out with the cattle, felt no little irritation at the inex- plicable
absence of Gillispie, who was to look after the garden. It was quite night-
fall when he at last returned. Supper was ready, although it had been
Gillispie's turn to prepare it.
Henderson was sore from his saddle, and cross at having to do more
than his share of the work. "Damn yeh!" he cried, as Gillispie appeared.
"Where yeh been?"
"Making garden," responded Gillispie, slowly.
"Making garden!" Henderson indulged in some more harmless oaths.
Just then Gillispie drew from under his coat a large and friendly
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looking apple-pie. "Yes," he said, with emphasis; "I've bin a-makin' garden
fur Mis' Ford."
And so it came about that the three Johns knew her and served her, and
that she never had a need that they were not ready to supply if they could.
Not one of them would have thought of going to town with- out stopping
to inquire what was needed at the village. As for Catherine Ford, she was
fighting her way with native pluck and maternal unselfishness. If she had
feared solitude she did not suffer from it. The activity of her life stifled her
fresh sorrow. She was pleasantly excited by the rumors that a railroad was
soon to be built near the place, which would raise the value of the claim
she was "holding down" many thou- sand dollars.
It is marvellous how sorrow shrinks when one is very healthy and very
much occupied. Although poverty was her close companion, Catherine
had no thought of it in this prim- itive manner of living. She had come out
there, with the independence and determi- nation of a Western woman, for
the purpose of living at the least possible expense, and making the most
she could while the baby was "getting out of her arms." That process has
its pleasures, which every mother feels in spite of burdens, and the mind is
happily dulled by nature's merciful provision. With a little child tugging at
the breast, care and fret vanish, not because of the happiness so much as
because of a certain mammal complacency, which is not at all intellectual,
but serves its purpose better than the pro- foundest method of reasoning.
So without any very unbearable misery at her recent widowhood, this
healthy young woman worked in field and house, cared for her little ones,
milked the two cows out in the corral, sewed, sang, rode, baked, and was
happy for very wholesomeness. Some- times she reproached herself that
she was not more miserable, remembering that long grave back in the
unkempt little prairie cemetery, and she sat down to coax her sorrow into
proper prominence. But the baby cooing at her from its bunk, the low of
the cattle from the corral begging her to relieve their heavy bags, the
familiar call of one of her neighbors from without, even the burning sky of
the summer dawns, broke the spell of this conjured sorrow, and in spite of
herself she was again a very hearty and happy young woman. Besides, if
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one has a liking for comedy, it is impossible to be dull on a Nebraska
prairie. The people are a merrier divertissement than the theatre with its
hackneyed stories. Catherine Ford laughed a good deal, and she took the
three Johns into her confidence, and they laughed with her. There was
Minerva Fitch, who insisted on coming over to tell Catherine how to raise
her children, and who was almost offended that the children wouldn't die
of sunstroke when she predicted. And there was Bob Ackerman, who had
inflam- matory rheumatism and a Past, and who confided the latter to Mrs.
Ford while she doctored the former with homoeopathic medicines. And
there were all the strange visionaries who came out prospecting, and quite
naturally drifted to Mrs. Ford's cabin for a meal, and paid her in
compliments of a peculiarly Western type. And there were the three Johns
themselves. Catherine con- sidered it no treason to laugh at them a little.
Yet at Waite she did not laugh much. There had come to be something
pathetic in the constant service he rendered her. The beginning of his more
particular devotion had started in a particular way. Malaria was very bad
in the country. It had carried off some of the most vigorous on the prairie,
and twice that summer Catherine herself had laid out the cold forms of her
neighbors on ironing-boards, and, with the assistance of Bill Deems of
Missourah, had read the burial service over them. She had averted several
other fatal runs of fever by the con- tents of her little medicine-case.
These remedies she dealt out with an intelligence that astonished her
patients, until it was learned that she was studying medicine at the time
that she met her late husband, and was persuaded to assume the
responsibilities of matrimony instead of those of the medi- cal profession.
One day in midsummer, when the sun was focussing itself on the raw
pine boards of her shanty, and Catherine had the shades drawn for
coolness and the water-pitcher swathed in wet rags, East Indian fashion,
she heard the familiar halloo of Waite down the road. This greeting, which
was usually sent to her from the point where the dip- ping road lifted itself
into the first view of the house, did not contain its usual note of
cheerfulness. Catherine, wiping her hands on her checked apron, ran out to
wave a welcome; and Waite, his squat body looking more distorted than
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ever, his huge shoulders lurching as he walked, came fairly plung- ing
down the hill.
"It's all up with Henderson!" he cried, as Catherine approached. "He's
got the malery, an' he says he's dyin'."
"That's no sign he's dying, because he says so," retorted Catherine.
"He wants to see yeh," panted Waite, mopping his big ugly head. "I
think he's got somethin' particular to say."
"How long has he been down?"
"Three days; an' yeh wouldn't know 'im."
The children were playing on the floor at that side of the house where
it was least hot. Catherine poured out three bowls of milk, and cut some
bread, meanwhile telling Kitty how to feed the baby.
"She's a sensible thing, is the little daughter," said Catherine, as she
tied on her sunbonnet and packed a little basket with things from the
cupboard. She kissed the babies tenderly, flung her hoe -- her only weapon
of defence -- over her shoulder, and the two started off.
They did not speak, for their throats were soon too parched. The
prairie was burned brown with the sun; the grasses curled as if they had
been on a gridiron. A strong wind was blowing; but it brought no com- fort,
for it was heavy with a scorching heat. The skin smarted and blistered
under it, and the eyes felt as if they were filled with sand. The sun seemed
to swing but a little way above the earth, and though the sky was intensest
blue, around about this burning ball there was a halo of copper, as if the
very ether were being consumed in yellow fire.
Waite put some big burdock-leaves on Catherine's head under her
bonnet, and now and then he took a bottle of water from his pocket and
made her swallow a mouthful. She staggered often as she walked, and the
road was black before her. Still, it was not very long before the oddly
shaped shack of the three Johns came in sight; and as he caught a glimpse
of it, Waite quickened his footsteps.
"What if he should be gone?" he said, under his breath.
"Oh, come off!" said Catherine, angrily. "He's not gone. You make me
tired!"
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But she was trembling when she stopped just before the door to
compose herself for a moment. Indeed, she trembled so very much that
Waite put out his sprawling hand to steady her. She gently felt the pressure
tightening, and Waite whispered in her ear:
"I guess I'd stand by him as well as any- body, excep' you, Mis' Ford.
He's been my bes' friend. But I guess you like him better, eh?"
Catherine raised her finger. She could hear Henderson's voice within;
it was pitiably querulous. He was half sitting up in his bunk, and Gillispie
had just handed him a plate on which two cakes were swim- ming in black
molasses and pork gravy. Henderson looked at it a moment; then over his
face came a look of utter despair. He dropped his head in his arms and
broke into uncontrolled crying.
"Oh, my God, Gillispie," he sobbed, "I shall die out here in this
wretched hole! I want my mother. Great God, Gillispie, am I going to die
without ever seeing my mother?"
Gillispie, maddened at this anguish, which he could in no way
alleviate, sought comfort by first lighting his pipe and then taking his
revolver out of his hip-pocket and playing with it. Henderson continued to
shake with sobs, and Catherine, who had never before in her life heard a
man cry, leaned against the door for a moment to gather courage. Then she
ran into the house quickly, laugh- ing as she came. She took Henderson's
arms away from his face and laid him back on the pillow, and she stooped
over him and kissed his forehead in the most matter- of-fact way.
"That's what your mother would do if she were here," she cried,
merrily. "Where's the water?"
She washed his face and hands a long time, till they were cool and his
convulsive sobs had ceased. Then she took a slice of thin bread from her
basket and a spoonful of amber jelly. She beat an egg into some milk and
dropped a little liquor within it, and served them together on the first clean
napkin that had been in the cabin of the three Johns since it was built
At this the great fool on the bed cried again, only quietly, tears of weak
happi- ness running from his feverish eyes. And Catherine straightened the
disorderly cabin. She came every day for two weeks, and by that time
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Henderson, very uncertain as to the strength of his legs, but once more
accoutred in his native pluck, sat up in a chair, for which she had made
clean soft cushions, writing a letter to his mother. The floor was scrubbed;
the cabin had taken to itself cupboards made of packing-boxes; it had
clothes-presses and shelves; curtains at the windows; boxes for all sort of
necessaries, from flour to tobacco; and a cook-book on the wall, with an
inscription within which was more appropriate than respectful.
The day that she announced that she would have no further call to
come back, Waite, who was looking after the house while Gillispie was
afield, made a little speech.
"After this here," he said, "we four stands er falls together. Now
look here, there's lots of things can happen to a person on this cussed
praira, and no one be none th' wiser. So see here, Mis' Ford, every night
one of us is a-goin' to th' roof of this shack. From there we can see your
place. If anything is th' matter -- it don't signify how little er how big --
you hang a lantern on th' stick that I'll put alongside th' house to-morrow.
Yeh can h'ist th' light up with a string, and every mornin' before we go out
we'll look too, and a white rag'll bring us quick as we can git there. We
don't say nothin' about what we owe yeh, fur that ain't our way, but we
sticks to each other from this on."
Catherine's eyes were moist. She looked at Henderson. His face had no
expression in it at all. He did not even say good-by to her, and she turned,
with the tears sud- denly dried under her lids, and walked down the road in
the twilight.
Weeks went by, and though Gillispie and Waite were often at
Catherine's, Henderson never came. Gillispie gave it out as his opinion
that Henderson was an ungrateful puppy; but Waite said nothing. This
strange man, who seemed like a mere unto- ward accident of nature, had
changed dur- ing the summer. His big ill-shaped body had grown more
gaunt; his deep-set gray eyes had sunk deeper; the gentleness which had
distinguished him even on the wild ranges of Montana became more
marked. Late in August he volunteered to take on himself the entire charge
of the night watch.
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"It's nicer to be out at night," he said to Catherine. "Then you don't
keep look- ing off at things; you can look inside;" and he struck his breast
with his splay hand.
Cattle are timorous under the stars. The vastness of the plains, the
sweep of the wind under the unbroken arch, frighten them; they are made
for the close comforts of the barn-yard; and the apprehension is con-
tagious, as every ranchman knows. Waite realized the need of becoming
good friends with his animals. Night after night, riding up and down in the
twilight of the stars, or dozing, rolled in his blanket, in the shelter of a
knoll, he would hear a low roar; it was the cry of the alarmist. Then from
every direction the cattle would rise with trembling awkwardness on their
knees, and answer, giving out sullen bellowings. Some of them would
begin to move from place to place, spreading the baseless alarm, and then
came the time for action, else over the plain in mere fruitless frenzy would
go the whole frantic band, lashed to madness by their own fears, trampling
each other, heed- less of any obstacle, in pitiable, deadly rout. Waite knew
the premonitory signs well, and at the first warning bellow he was on his
feet, alert and determined, his energy nerved for a struggle in which he
always conquered.
Waite had a secret which he told to none, knowing, in his unanalytical
fashion, that it would not be believed in. But soon as ever the dark heads
of the cattle began to lift themselves, he sent a resonant voice out into the
stillness. The songs he sang were hymns, and he made them into a sort of
imperative lullaby. Waite let his lungs and soul fill with the breath of the
night; he gave himself up to the exaltation of mastering those trembling
brutes. Mount- ing, melodious, with even and powerful swing he let his
full notes fall on the air in the confidence of power, and one by one the
reassured cattle would lie down again, lowing in soft contentment, and so
fall asleep with noses stretched out in mute attention, till their presence
could hardly be guessed except for the sweet aroma of their cuds. One
night in the early dusk, he saw Cath- erine Ford hastening across the
prairie with Bill Deems. He sent a halloo out to them, which they both
answered as they ran on. Waite knew on what errand of mercy Cath- erine
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was bent, and he thought of the chil- dren over at the cabin alone. The
cattle were quiet, the night beautiful, and he con- cluded that it was safe
enough, since he was on his pony, to ride down there about mid- night and
see that the little ones were safe.
The dark sky, pricked with points of in- tensest light, hung over him so
beneficently that in his heart there leaped a joy which even his ever-
present sorrow could not dis- turb. This sorrow Waite openly admitted not
only to himself, but to others. He had said to Catherine: "You see, I'll
always hev to love yeh. An' yeh'll not git cross with me; I'm not goin' to be
in th' way." And Catherine had told him, with tears in her eyes, that his
love could never be but a com- fort to any woman. And these words,
which the poor fellow had in no sense mistaken, comforted him always,
became part of his joy as he rode there, under those piercing stars, to look