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Miss Minchin replied with much dignity:
"As you ask it as a birthday favor--she may stay. Rebecca, thank
Miss Sara for her great kindness."
Becky had been backing into the corner, twisting the hem of her apron
in delighted suspense. She came forward, bobbing curtsies, but between
Sara's eyes and her own there passed a gleam of friendly understanding,
while her words tumbled over each other.
"Oh, if you please, miss! I'm that grateful, miss! I did want to see
the doll, miss, that I did. Thank you, miss. And thank you, ma'am,"--
turning and making an alarmed bob to Miss Minchin--"for letting me take
the liberty."
Miss Minchin waved her hand again--this time it was in the direction
of the corner near the door.
"Go and stand there," she commanded. "Not too near the young
ladies."
Becky went to her place, grinning. She did not care where she was
sent, so that she might have the luck of being inside the room, instead of
being downstairs in the scullery, while these delights were going on. She
did not even mind when Miss Minchin cleared her throat ominously and
spoke again.
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"Now, young ladies, I have a few words to say to you," she announced.
"She's going to make a speech," whispered one of the girls. "I wish it
was over."
Sara felt rather uncomfortable. As this was her party, it was probable
that the speech was about her. It is not agreeable to stand in a
schoolroom and have a speech made about you.
"You are aware, young ladies," the speech began--for it was a speech--
"that dear Sara is eleven years old today."
"DEAR Sara!" murmured Lavinia.
"Several of you here have also been eleven years old, but Sara's
birthdays are rather different from other little girls' birthdays. When she
is older she will be heiress to a large fortune, which it will be her duty to
spend in a meritorious manner."
"The diamond mines," giggled Jessie, in a whisper.
Sara did not hear her; but as she stood with her green-gray eyes fixed
steadily on Miss Minchin, she felt herself growing rather hot. When
Miss Minchin talked about money, she felt somehow that she always hated
her--and, of course, it was disrespectful to hate grown-up people.
"When her dear papa, Captain Crewe, brought her from India and gave
her into my care," the speech proceeded, "he said to me, in a jesting way,
`I am afraid she will be very rich, Miss Minchin.' My reply was, `Her
education at my seminary, Captain Crewe, shall be such as will adorn the
largest fortune.' Sara has become my most accomplished pupil. Her
French and her dancing are a credit to the seminary. Her manners--
which have caused you to call her Princess Sara--are perfect. Her
amiability she exhibits by giving you this afternoon's party. I hope you
appreciate her generosity. I wish you to express your appreciation of it
by saying aloud all together, `Thank you, Sara!'"
The entire schoolroom rose to its feet as it had done the morning Sara
remembered so well.
"Thank you, Sara!" it said, and it must be confessed that Lottie jumped
up and down. Sara looked rather shy for a moment. She made a curtsy-
-and it was a very nice one.
"Thank you," she said, "for coming to my party."
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"Very pretty, indeed, Sara," approved Miss Minchin. "That is what a
real princess does when the populace applauds her. Lavinia"--scathingly-
- "the sound you just made was extremely like a snort. If you are jealous
of your fellow-pupil, I beg you will express your feelings in some more
lady{-}like manner. Now I will leave you to enjoy yourselves."
The instant she had swept out of the room the spell her presence
always had upon them was broken. The door had scarcely closed before
every seat was empty. The little girls jumped or tumbled out of theirs;
the older ones wasted no time in deserting theirs. There was a rush
toward the boxes. Sara had bent over one of them with a delighted face.
"These are books, I know," she said.
The little children broke into a rueful murmur, and Ermengarde looked
aghast.
"Does your papa send you books for a birthday present?" she
exclaimed. "Why, he's as bad as mine. Don't open them, Sara."
"I like them," Sara laughed, but she turned to the biggest box. When
she took out the Last Doll it was so magnificent that the children uttered
delighted groans of joy, and actually drew back to gaze at it in breathless
rapture.
"She is almost as big as Lottie," someone gasped.
Lottie clapped her hands and danced about, giggling.
"She's dressed for the theater," said Lavinia. "Her cloak is lined with
ermine."
"Oh," cried Ermengarde, darting forward, "she has an opera-glass in
her hand--a blue-and-gold one!"
"Here is her trunk," said Sara. "Let us open it and look at her things."
She sat down upon the floor and turned the key. The children
crowded clamoring around her, as she lifted tray after tray and revealed
their contents. Never had the schoolroom been in such an uproar.
There were lace collars and silk stockings and handkerchiefs; there was a
jewel case containing a necklace and a tiara which looked quite as if they
were made of real diamonds; there was a long sealskin and muff, there
were ball dresses and walking dresses and visiting dresses; there were hats
and tea gowns and fans. Even Lavinia and Jessie forgot that they were
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too elderly to care for dolls, and uttered exclamations of delight and
caught up things to look at them.
"Suppose," Sara said, as she stood by the table, putting a large, black-
velvet hat on the impassively smiling owner of all these splendors--
"suppose she understands human talk and feels proud of being admired."
"You are always supposing things," said Lavinia, and her air was very
superior.
"I know I am," answered Sara, undisturbedly. "I like it. There is
nothing so nice as supposing. It's almost like being a fairy. If you
suppose anything hard enough it seems as if it were real."
"It's all very well to suppose things if you have everything," said
Lavinia. "Could you suppose and pretend if you were a beggar and lived
in a garret?"
Sara stopped arranging the Last Doll's ostrich plumes, and looked
thoughtful.
"I BELIEVE I could," she said. "If one was a beggar, one would
have to suppose and pretend all the time. But it mightn't be easy."
She often thought afterward how strange it was that just as she had
finished saying this--just at that very moment--Miss Amelia came into the
room.
"Sara," she said, "your papa's solicitor, Mr. Barrow, has called to see
Miss Minchin, and, as she must talk to him alone and the refreshments are
laid in her parlor, you had all better come and have your feast now, so that
my sister can have her interview here in the schoolroom."
Refreshments were not likely to be disdained at any hour, and many
pairs of eyes gleamed. Miss Amelia arranged the procession into
decorum, and then, with Sara at her side heading it, she led it away,
leaving the Last Doll sitting upon a chair with the glories of her wardrobe
scattered about her; dresses and coats hung upon chair backs, piles of lace-
frilled petticoats lying upon their seats.
Becky, who was not expected to partake of refreshments, had the
indiscretion to linger a moment to look at these beauties-- it really was an
indiscretion.
"Go back to your work, Becky," Miss Amelia had said; but she had
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stopped to pick up reverently first a muff and then a coat, and while she
stood looking at them adoringly, she heard Miss Minchin upon the
threshold, and, being smitten with terror at the thought of being accused of
taking liberties, she rashly darted under the table, which hid her by its
tablecloth.
Miss Minchin came into the room, accompanied by a sharp-featured,
dry little gentleman, who looked rather disturbed. Miss Minchin herself
also looked rather disturbed, it must be admitted, and she gazed at the dry
little gentleman with an irritated and puzzled expression.
She sat down with stiff dignity, and waved him to a chair.
"Pray, be seated, Mr. Barrow," she said.
Mr. Barrow did not sit down at once. His attention seemed attracted
by the Last Doll and the things which surrounded her. He settled his
eyeglasses and looked at them in nervous disapproval. The Last Doll
herself did not seem to mind this in the least. She merely sat upright and
returned his gaze indifferently.
"A hundred pounds," Mr. Barrow remarked succinctly. "All
expensive material, and made at a Parisian modiste's. He spent money
lavishly enough, that young man."
Miss Minchin felt offended. This seemed to be a disparagement of
her best patron and was a liberty.
Even solicitors had no right to take liberties.
"I beg your pardon, Mr. Barrow," she said stiffly. "I do not
understand."
"Birthday presents," said Mr. Barrow in the same critical manner, "to a
child eleven years old! Mad extravagance, I call it."
Miss Minchin drew herself up still more rigidly.
"Captain Crewe is a man of fortune," she said. "The diamond mines
alone--"
Mr. Barrow wheeled round upon her. "Diamond mines!" he broke
out. "There are none! Never were!"
Miss Minchin actually got up from her chair.
"What!" she cried. "What do you mean?"
"At any rate," answered Mr. Barrow, quite snappishly, "it would have
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been much better if there never had been any."
"Any diamond mines?" ejaculated Miss Minchin, catching at the back
of a chair and feeling as if a splendid dream was fading away from her.
"Diamond mines spell ruin oftener than they spell wealth," said Mr.
Barrow. "When a man is in the hands of a very dear friend and is not a
businessman himself, he had better steer clear of the dear friend's diamond
mines, or gold mines, or any other kind of mines dear friends want his
money to put into. The late Captain Crewe--"
Here Miss Minchin stopped him with a gasp.
"The LATE Captain Crewe!" she cried out. "The LATE>! You don't
come to tell me that Captain Crewe is--"
"He's dead, ma'am," Mr. Barrow answered with jerky brusqueness.
"Died of jungle fever and business troubles combined. The jungle fever
might not have killed him if he had not been driven mad by the business
troubles, and the business troubles might not have put an end to him if the
jungle fever had not assisted. Captain Crewe is dead!"
Miss Minchin dropped into her chair again. The words he had
spoken filled her with alarm.
"What WERE his business troubles?" she said. "What WERE they?"
"Diamond mines," answered Mr. Barrow, "and dear friends--and ruin."
Miss Minchin lost her breath.
"Ruin!" she gasped out.
"Lost every penny. That young man had too much money. The dear
friend was mad on the subject of the diamond mine. He put all his own
money into it, and all Captain Crewe's. Then the dear friend ran away--
Captain Crewe was already stricken with fever when the news came.
The shock was too much for him. He died delirious, raving about his
little girl--and didn't leave a penny."
Now Miss Minchin understood, and never had she received such a
blow in her life. Her show pupil, her show patron, swept away from the
Select Seminary at one blow. She felt as if she had been outraged and
robbed, and that Captain Crewe and Sara and Mr. Barrow were equally to
blame.
"Do you mean to tell me," she cried out, "that he left NOTHING>!
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That Sara will have no fortune! That the child is a beggar! That she is
left on my hands a little pauper instead of an heiress?"
Mr. Barrow was a shrewd businessman, and felt it as well to make his
own freedom from responsibility quite clear without any delay.
"She is certainly left a beggar," he replied. "And she is certainly left
on your hands, ma'am--as she hasn't a relation in the world that we know
of."
Miss Minchin started forward. She looked as if she was going to
open the door and rush out of the room to stop the festivities going on
joyfully and rather noisily that moment over the refreshments.
"It is monstrous!" she said. "She's in my sitting room at this moment,
dressed in silk gauze and lace petticoats, giving a party at my expense."
"She's giving it at your expense, madam, if she's giving it," said Mr.
Barrow, calmly. "Barrow & Skipworth are not responsible for anything.
There never was a cleaner sweep made of a man's fortune. Captain
Crewe died without paying OUR last bill--and it was a big one."
Miss Minchin turned back from the door in increased indignation.
This was worse than anyone could have dreamed of its being.
"That is what has happened to me!" she cried. "I was always so sure
of his payments that I went to all sorts of ridiculous expenses for the child.
I paid the bills for that ridiculous doll and her ridiculous fantastic
wardrobe. The child was to have anything she wanted. She has a
carriage and a pony and a maid, and I've paid for all of them since the last
cheque came."
Mr. Barrow evidently did not intend to remain to listen to the story of
Miss Minchin's grievances after he had made the position of his firm clear
and related the mere dry facts. He did not feel any particular sympathy
for irate keepers of boarding schools.
"You had better not pay for anything more, ma'am," he remarked,
"unless you want to make presents to the young lady. No one will
remember you. She hasn't a brass farthing to call her own."
"But what am I to do?" demanded Miss Minchin, as if she felt it
entirely his duty to make the matter right. "What am I to do?"
"There isn't anything to do," said Mr. Barrow, folding up his
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eyeglasses and slipping them into his pocket. "Captain Crewe is dead.
The child is left a pauper. Nobody is responsible for her but you."
"I am not responsible for her, and I refuse to be made responsible!"
Miss Minchin became quite white with rage.
Mr. Barrow turned to go.
"I have nothing to do with that, madam," he said un-interestedly.
"Barrow & Skipworth are not responsible. Very sorry the thing has
happened, of course."
"If you think she is to be foisted off on me, you are greatly mistaken,"
Miss Minchin gasped. "I have been robbed and cheated; I will turn her
into the street!"
If she had not been so furious, she would have been too discreet to say
quite so much. She saw herself burdened with an extravagantly brought-
up child whom she had always resented, and she lost all self-control.
Mr. Barrow undisturbedly moved toward the door.
"I wouldn't do that, madam," he commented; "it wouldn't look well.
Unpleasant story to get about in connection with the establishment. Pupil
bundled out penniless and without friends."
He was a clever business man, and he knew what he was saying. He
also knew that Miss Minchin was a business woman, and would be shrewd
enough to see the truth. She could not afford to do a thing which would
make people speak of her as cruel and hard-hearted.
"Better keep her and make use of her," he added. "She's a clever
child, I believe. You can get a good deal out of her as she grows older."
"I will get a good deal out of her before she grows older!" exclaimed
Miss Minchin.
"I am sure you will, ma'am," said Mr. Barrow, with a little sinister
smile. "I am sure you will. Good morning!"
He bowed himself out and closed the door, and it must be confessed
that Miss Minchin stood for a few moments and glared at it. What he
had said was quite true. She knew it. She had absolutely no redress.
Her show pupil had melted into nothingness, leaving only a friendless,
beggared little girl. Such money as she herself had advanced was lost
and could not be regained.
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And as she stood there breathless under her sense of injury, there fell
upon her ears a burst of gay voices from her own sacred room, which had
actually been given up to the feast. She could at least stop this.
But as she started toward the door it was opened by Miss Amelia, who,
when she caught sight of the changed, angry face, fell back a step in
alarm.
"What IS the matter, sister?" she ejaculated.
Miss Minchin's voice was almost fierce when she answered:
"Where is Sara Crewe?"
Miss Amelia was bewildered.
"Sara!" she stammered. "Why, she's with the children in your room,
of course."
"Has she a black frock in her sumptuous wardrobe?"--in bitter irony.
"A black frock?" Miss Amelia stammered again. "A BLACK one?"
"She has frocks of every other color. Has she a black one?"
Miss Amelia began to turn pale.
"No--ye-es!" she said. "But it is too short for her. She has only the
old black velvet, and she has outgrown it."
"Go and tell her to take off that preposterous pink silk gauze, and put
the black one on, whether it is too short or not. She has done with
finery!"
Then Miss Amelia began to wring her fat hands and cry.
"Oh, sister!" she sniffed. "Oh, sister! What CAN have happened?"
Miss Minchin wasted no words.
"Captain Crewe is dead," she said. "He has died without a penny.
That spoiled, pampered, fanciful child is left a pauper on my hands."
Miss Amelia sat down quite heavily in the nearest chair.
"Hundreds of pounds have I spent on nonsense for her. And I shall
never see a penny of it. Put a stop to this ridiculous party of hers. Go
and make her change her frock at once."
"I?" panted Miss Amelia. "M-must I go and tell her now?"
"This moment!" was the fierce answer. "Don't sit staring like a goose.
Go!"
Poor Miss Amelia was accustomed to being called a goose. She
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knew, in fact, that she was rather a goose, and that it was left to geese to
do a great many disagreeable things. It was a somewhat embarrassing
thing to go into the midst of a room full of delighted children, and tell the
giver of the feast that she had suddenly been transformed into a little
beggar, and must go upstairs and put on an old black frock which was too
small for her. But the thing must be done. This was evidently not the
time when questions might be asked.
She rubbed her eyes with her handkerchief until they looked quite red.
After which she got up and went out of the room, without venturing to say
another word. When her older sister looked and spoke as she had done
just now, the wisest course to pursue was to obey orders without any
comment. Miss Minchin walked across the room. She spoke to herself
aloud without knowing that she was doing it. During the last year the
story of the diamond mines had suggested all sorts of possibilities to her.
Even proprietors of seminaries might make fortunes in stocks, with the aid
of owners of mines. And now, instead of looking forward to gains, she
was left to look back upon losses.
"The Princess Sara, indeed!" she said. "The child has been pampered
as if she were a QUEEN>." She was sweeping angrily past the corner
table as she said it, and the next moment she started at the sound of a loud,
sobbing sniff which issued from under the cover.
"What is that!" she exclaimed angrily. The loud, sobbing sniff was
heard again, and she stooped and raised the hanging folds of the table
cover.
"How DARE you!" she cried out. "How dare you! Come out
immediately!"
It was poor Becky who crawled out, and her cap was knocked on one
side, and her face was red with repressed crying.
"If you please, 'm--it's me, mum," she explained. "I know I hadn't
ought to. But I was lookin' at the doll, mum--an' I was frightened when
you come in--an' slipped under the table."
"You have been there all the time, listening," said Miss Minchin.
"No, mum," Becky protested, bobbing curtsies. "Not listenin'-- I
thought I could slip out without your noticin', but I couldn't an' I had to
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stay. But I didn't listen, mum--I wouldn't for nothin'. But I couldn't help
hearin'."
Suddenly it seemed almost as if she lost all fear of the awful lady
before her. She burst into fresh tears.
"Oh, please, 'm," she said; "I dare say you'll give me warnin, mum--
but I'm so sorry for poor Miss Sara--I'm so sorry!"
"Leave the room!" ordered Miss Minchin.
Becky curtsied again, the tears openly streaming down her cheeks.
"Yes, 'm; I will, 'm," she said, trembling; "but oh, I just wanted to arst
you: Miss Sara--she's been such a rich young lady, an' she's been waited
on, 'and and foot; an' what will she do now, mum, without no maid? If--
if, oh please, would you let me wait on her after I've done my pots an'
kettles? I'd do 'em that quick-- if you'd let me wait on her now she's poor.
Oh," breaking out afresh, "poor little Miss Sara, mum--that was called a
princess."
Somehow, she made Miss Minchin feel more angry than ever. That
the very scullery maid should range herself on the side of this child--
whom she realized more fully than ever that she had never liked-- was too
much. She actually stamped her foot.
"No--certainly not," she said. "She will wait on herself, and on other
people, too. Leave the room this instant, or you'll leave your place."
Becky threw her apron over her head and fled. She ran out of the
room and down the steps into the scullery, and there she sat down among
her pots and kettles, and wept as if her heart would break.
"It's exactly like the ones in the stories," she wailed. "Them pore
princess ones that was drove into the world."
Miss Minchin had never looked quite so still and hard as she did
when Sara came to her, a few hours later, in response to a message she had
sent her.
Even by that time it seemed to Sara as if the birthday party had either
been a dream or a thing which had happened years ago, and had happened
in the life of quite another little girl.
Every sign of the festivities had been swept away; the holly had been
removed from the schoolroom walls, and the forms and desks put back
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into their places. Miss Minchin's sitting room looked as it always did--all
traces of the feast were gone, and Miss Minchin had resumed her usual
dress. The pupils had been ordered to lay aside their party frocks; and
this having been done, they had returned to the schoolroom and huddled
together in groups, whispering and talking excitedly.
"Tell Sara to come to my room," Miss Minchin had said to her sister.
"And explain to her clearly that I will have no crying or unpleasant
scenes."
"Sister," replied Miss Amelia, "she is the strangest child I ever saw.
She has actually made no fuss at all. You remember she made none when
Captain Crewe went back to India. When I told her what had happened,
she just stood quite still and looked at me without making a sound. Her
eyes seemed to get bigger and bigger, and she went quite pale. When I
had finished, she still stood staring for a few seconds, and then her chin
began to shake, and she turned round and ran out of the room and upstairs.
Several of the other children began to cry, but she did not seem to hear
them or to be alive to anything but just what I was saying. It made me
feel quite queer not to be answered; and when you tell anything sudden
and strange, you expect people will say SOMETHING>- whatever it is."
Nobody but Sara herself ever knew what had happened in her room
after she had run upstairs and locked her door. In fact, she herself
scarcely remembered anything but that she walked up and down, saying
over and over again to herself in a voice which did not seem her own, "My
papa is dead! My papa is dead!"
Once she stopped before Emily, who sat watching her from her chair,
and cried out wildly, "Emily! Do you hear? Do you hear--papa is dead?
He is dead in India--thousands of miles away."
When she came into Miss Minchin's sitting room in answer to her
summons, her face was white and her eyes had dark rings around them.
Her mouth was set as if she did not wish it to reveal what she had suffered
and was suffering. She did not look in the least like the rose-colored
butterfly child who had flown about from one of her treasures to the other
in the decorated schoolroom. She looked instead a strange, desolate,
almost grotesque little figure.
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She had put on, without Mariette's help, the cast-aside black-velvet
frock. It was too short and tight, and her slender legs looked long and
thin, showing themselves from beneath the brief skirt. As she had not
found a piece of black ribbon, her short, thick, black hair tumbled loosely
about her face and contrasted strongly with its pallor. She held Emily
tightly in one arm, and Emily was swathed in a piece of black material.
"Put down your doll," said Miss Minchin. "What do you mean by
bringing her here?"
"No," Sara answered. "I will not put her down. She is all I have.
My papa gave her to me."
She had always made Miss Minchin feel secretly uncomfortable, and
she did so now. She did not speak with rudeness so much as with a cold
steadiness with which Miss Minchin felt it difficult to cope-- perhaps
because she knew she was doing a heartless and inhuman thing.
"You will have no time for dolls in future," she said. "You will have
to work and improve yourself and make yourself useful."
Sara kept her big, strange eyes fixed on her, and said not a word.
"Everything will be very different now," Miss Minchin went on. "I
suppose Miss Amelia has explained matters to you."
"Yes," answered Sara. "My papa is dead. He left me no money. I
am quite poor."
"You are a beggar," said Miss Minchin, her temper rising at the
recollection of what all this meant. "It appears that you have no relations
and no home, and no one to take care of you."
For a moment the thin, pale little face twitched, but Sara again said
nothing.
"What are you staring at?" demanded Miss Minchin, sharply. "Are
you so stupid that you cannot understand? I tell you that you are quite
alone in the world, and have no one to do anything for you, unless I
choose to keep you here out of charity."
"I understand," answered Sara, in a low tone; and there was a sound as
if she had gulped down something which rose in her throat. "I
understand."
"That doll," cried Miss Minchin, pointing to the splendid birthday gift
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seated near--"that ridiculous doll, with all her nonsensical, extravagant
things--I actually paid the bill for her!" Sara turned her head toward the
chair.
"The Last Doll," she said. "The Last Doll." And her little mournful
voice had an odd sound.
"The Last Doll, indeed!" said Miss Minchin. "And she is mine, not
yours. Everything you own is mine."
"Please take it away from me, then," said Sara. "I do not want it."
If she had cried and sobbed and seemed frightened, Miss Minchin
might almost have had more patience with her. She was a woman who
liked to domineer and feel her power, and as she looked at Sara's pale little
steadfast face and heard her proud little voice, she quite felt as if her might
was being set at naught.
"Don't put on grand airs," she said. "The time for that sort of thing is
past. You are not a princess any longer. Your carriage and your pony
will be sent away--your maid will be dismissed. You will wear your
oldest and plainest clothes--your extravagant ones are no longer suited to
your station. You are like Becky-- you must work for your living."
To her surprise, a faint gleam of light came into the child's eyes-- a
shade of relief.
"Can I work?" she said. "If I can work it will not matter so much.
What can I do?"
"You can do anything you are told," was the answer. "You are a
sharp child, and pick up things readily. If you make yourself useful I
may let you stay here. You speak French well, and you can help with the
younger children."
"May I?" exclaimed Sara. "Oh, please let me! I know I can teach
them. I like them, and they like me."
"Don't talk nonsense about people liking you," said Miss Minchin.
"You will have to do more than teach the little ones. You will run errands
and help in the kitchen as well as in the schoolroom. If you don't please
me, you will be sent away. Remember that. Now go."
Sara stood still just a moment, looking at her. In her young soul, she
was thinking deep and strange things. Then she turned to leave the room.
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"Stop!" said Miss Minchin. "Don't you intend to thank me?"
Sara paused, and all the deep, strange thoughts surged up in her breast.
"What for?" she said.
"For my kindness to you," replied Miss Minchin. "For my kindness
in giving you a home."
Sara made two or three steps toward her. Her thin little chest heaved
up and down, and she spoke in a strange un-childishly fierce way.
"You are not kind," she said. "You are NOT kind, and it is NOT a
home." And she had turned and run out of the room before Miss Minchin
could stop her or do anything but stare after her with stony anger.
She went up the stairs slowly, but panting for breath and she held
Emily tightly against her side.
"I wish she could talk," she said to herself. "If she could speak-- if
she could speak!"
She meant to go to her room and lie down on the tiger-skin, with her
cheek upon the great cat's head, and look into the fire and think and think
and think. But just before she reached the landing Miss Amelia came out
of the door and closed it behind her, and stood before it, looking nervous
and awkward. The truth was that she felt secretly ashamed of the thing
she had been ordered to do.
"You--you are not to go in there," she said.
"Not go in?" exclaimed Sara, and she fell back a pace.
"That is not your room now," Miss Amelia answered, reddening a
little.
Somehow, all at once, Sara understood. She realized that this was the
beginning of the change Miss Minchin had spoken of.
"Where is my room?" she asked, hoping very much that her voice did
not shake.
"You are to sleep in the attic next to Becky."
Sara knew where it was. Becky had told her about it. She turned,
and mounted up two flights of stairs. The last one was narrow, and
covered with shabby strips of old carpet. She felt as if she were walking
away and leaving far behind her the world in which that other child, who
no longer seemed herself, had lived. This child, in her short, tight old
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frock, climbing the stairs to the attic, was quite a different creature.
When she reached the attic door and opened it, her heart gave a dreary
little thump. Then she shut the door and stood against it and looked
about her.
Yes, this was another world. The room had a slanting roof and was
whitewashed. The whitewash was dingy and had fallen off in places.
There was a rusty grate, an old iron bedstead, and a hard bed covered with
a faded coverlet. Some pieces of furniture too much worn to be used
downstairs had been sent up. Under the skylight in the roof, which
showed nothing but an oblong piece of dull gray sky, there stood an old
battered red footstool. Sara went to it and sat down. She seldom cried.
She did not cry now. She laid Emily across her knees and put her face
down upon her and her arms around her, and sat there, her little black head
resting on the black draperies, not saying one word, not making one
sound.
And as she sat in this silence there came a low tap at the door-- such a
low, humble one that she did not at first hear it, and, indeed, was not
roused until the door was timidly pushed open and a poor tear-smeared
face appeared peeping round it. It was Becky's face, and Becky had been
crying furtively for hours and rubbing her eyes with her kitchen apron
until she looked strange indeed.
"Oh, miss," she said under her breath. "Might I--would you allow
me-- jest to come in?"
Sara lifted her head and looked at her. She tried to begin a smile, and
somehow she could not. Suddenly--and it was all through the loving
mournfulness of Becky's streaming eyes--her face looked more like a
child's not so much too old for her years. She held out her hand and gave
a little sob.
"Oh, Becky," she said. "I told you we were just the same--only two
little girls--just two little girls. You see how true it is. There's no
difference now. I'm not a princess anymore."
Becky ran to her and caught her hand, and hugged it to her breast,
kneeling beside her and sobbing with love and pain.
"Yes, miss, you are," she cried, and her words were all broken.
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"Whats'ever 'appens to you--whats'ever--you'd be a princess all the same--
an' nothin' couldn't make you nothin' different."
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8
In the Attic
The first night she spent in her attic was a thing Sara never forgot.
During its passing she lived through a wild, unchildlike woe of which she
never spoke to anyone about her. There was no one who would have
understood. It was, indeed, well for her that as she lay awake in the
darkness her mind was forcibly distracted, now and then, by the
strangeness of her surroundings. It was, perhaps, well for her that she
was reminded by her small body of material things. If this had not been
so, the anguish of her young mind might have been too great for a child to
bear. But, really, while the night was passing she scarcely knew that she
had a body at all or remembered any other thing than one.
"My papa is dead!" she kept whispering to herself. "My papa is
dead!"
It was not until long afterward that she realized that her bed had been
so hard that she turned over and over in it to find a place to rest, that the
darkness seemed more intense than any she had ever known, and that the
wind howled over the roof among the chimneys like something which
wailed aloud. Then there was something worse. This was certain
scufflings and scratchings and squeakings in the walls and behind the
skirting boards. She knew what they meant, because Becky had
described them. They meant rats and mice who were either fighting with
each other or playing together. Once or twice she even heard sharp-toed
feet scurrying across the floor, and she remembered in those after days,
when she recalled things, that when first she heard them she started up in
bed and sat trembling, and when she lay down again covered her head
with the bedclothes.
The change in her life did not come about gradually, but was made all
at once.
"She must begin as she is to go on," Miss Minchin said to Miss Amelia.
"She must be taught at once what she is to expect."
Mariette had left the house the next morning. The glimpse Sara
caught of her sitting room, as she passed its open door, showed her that
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everything had been changed. Her ornaments and luxuries had been
removed, and a bed had been placed in a corner to transform it into a new
pupil's bedroom.
When she went down to breakfast she saw that her seat at Miss
Minchin's side was occupied by Lavinia, and Miss Minchin spoke to her
coldly.
"You will begin your new duties, Sara," she said, "by taking your seat
with the younger children at a smaller table. You must keep them quiet,
and see that they behave well and do not waste their food. You ought to
have been down earlier. Lottie has already upset her tea."
That was the beginning, and from day to day the duties given to her
were added to. She taught the younger children French and heard their
other lessons, and these were the least of her labors. It was found that
she could be made use of in numberless directions. She could be sent on
errands at any time and in all weathers. She could be told to do things
other people neglected. The cook and the housemaids took their tone
from Miss Minchin, and rather enjoyed ordering about the "young one"
who had been made so much fuss over for so long. They were not
servants of the best class, and had neither good manners nor good tempers,
and it was frequently convenient to have at hand someone on whom blame
could be laid.
During the first month or two, Sara thought that her willingness to do
things as well as she could, and her silence under reproof, might soften
those who drove her so hard. In her proud little heart she wanted them to
see that she was trying to earn her living and not accepting charity. But
the time came when she saw that no one was softened at all; and the more
willing she was to do as she was told, the more domineering and exacting
careless housemaids became, and the more ready a scolding cook was to
blame her.
If she had been older, Miss Minchin would have given her the bigger
girls to teach and saved money by dismissing an instructress; but while she
remained and looked like a child, she could be made more useful as a sort
of little superior errand girl and maid of all work. An ordinary errand
boy would not have been so clever and reliable. Sara could be trusted
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with difficult commissions and complicated messages. She could even
go and pay bills, and she combined with this the ability to dust a room
well and to set things in order.
Her own lessons became things of the past. She was taught nothing,
and only after long and busy days spent in running here and there at
everybody's orders was she grudgingly allowed to go into the deserted
schoolroom, with a pile of old books, and study alone at night.
"If I do not remind myself of the things I have learned, perhaps I may
forget them," she said to herself. "I am almost a scullery maid, and if I
am a scullery maid who knows nothing, I shall be like poor Becky. I
wonder if I could QUITE forget and begin to drop my H'S and not
remember that Henry the Eighth had six wives."
One of the most curious things in her new existence was her changed
position among the pupils. Instead of being a sort of small royal
personage among them, she no longer seemed to be one of their number at
all. She was kept so constantly at work that she scarcely ever had an
opportunity of speaking to any of them, and she could not avoid seeing
that Miss Minchin preferred that she should live a life apart from that of
the occupants of the schoolroom.
"I will not have her forming intimacies and talking to the other
children," that lady said. "Girls like a grievance, and if she begins to tell
romantic stories about herself, she will become an ill-used heroine, and
parents will be given a wrong impression. It is better that she should live
a separate life--one suited to her circumstances. I am giving her a home,
and that is more than she has any right to expect from me."
Sara did not expect much, and was far too proud to try to continue to
be intimate with girls who evidently felt rather awkward and uncertain
about her. The fact was that Miss Minchin's pupils were a set of dull,
matter-of-fact young people. They were accustomed to being rich and
comfortable, and as Sara's frocks grew shorter and shabbier and queerer-
looking, and it became an established fact that she wore shoes with holes
in them and was sent out to buy groceries and carry them through the
streets in a basket on her arm when the cook wanted them in a hurry, they
felt rather as if, when they spoke to her, they were addressing an under
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servant.
"To think that she was the girl with the diamond mines, Lavinia
commented. "She does look an object. And she's queerer than ever. I
never liked her much, but I can't bear that way she has now of looking at
people without speaking--just as if she was finding them out."
"I am," said Sara, promptly, when she heard of this. "That's what I
look at some people for. I like to know about them. I think them over
afterward."
The truth was that she had saved herself annoyance several times by
keeping her eye on Lavinia, who was quite ready to make mischief, and
would have been rather pleased to have made it for the ex-show pupil.
Sara never made any mischief herself, or interfered with anyone. She
worked like a drudge; she tramped through the wet streets, carrying
parcels and baskets; she labored with the childish inattention of the little
ones' French lessons; as she became shabbier and more forlorn-looking,
she was told that she had better take her meals downstairs; she was treated
as if she was nobody's concern, and her heart grew proud and sore, but she
never told anyone what she felt.
"Soldiers don't complain," she would say between her small, shut teeth,
"I am not going to do it; I will pretend this is part of a war."
But there were hours when her child heart might almost have broken
with loneliness but for three people.
The first, it must be owned, was Becky--just Becky. Throughout all
that first night spent in the garret, she had felt a vague comfort in knowing
that on the other side of the wall in which the rats scuffled and squeaked
there was another young human creature. And during the nights that
followed the sense of comfort grew. They had little chance to speak to
each other during the day. Each had her own tasks to perform, and any
attempt at conversation would have been regarded as a tendency to loiter
and lose time. "Don't mind me, miss," Becky whispered during the first
morning, "if I don't say nothin' polite. Some un'd be down on us if I did.
I MEANS `please' an' `thank you' an' `beg pardon,' but I dassn't to take
time to say it."
But before daybreak she used to slip into Sara's attic and button her
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dress and give her such help as she required before she went downstairs to
light the kitchen fire. And when night came Sara always heard the
humble knock at her door which meant that her handmaid was ready to
help her again if she was needed. During the first weeks of her grief Sara
felt as if she were too stupefied to talk, so it happened that some time
passed before they saw each other much or exchanged visits. Becky's
heart told her that it was best that people in trouble should be left alone.
The second of the trio of comforters was Ermengarde, but odd things
happened before Ermengarde found her place.
When Sara's mind seemed to awaken again to the life about her, she
realized that she had forgotten that an Ermengarde lived in the world.
The two had always been friends, but Sara had felt as if she were years the
older. It could not be contested that Ermengarde was as dull as she was
affectionate. She clung to Sara in a simple, helpless way; she brought
her lessons to her that she might be helped; she listened to her every word
and besieged her with requests for stories. But she had nothing
interesting to say herself, and she loathed books of every description.
She was, in fact, not a person one would remember when one was caught
in the storm of a great trouble, and Sara forgot her.
It had been all the easier to forget her because she had been suddenly
called home for a few weeks. When she came back she did not see Sara
for a day or two, and when she met her for the first time she encountered
her coming down a corridor with her arms full of garments which were to
be taken downstairs to be mended. Sara herself had already been taught
to mend them. She looked pale and unlike herself, and she was attired in
the queer, outgrown frock whose shortness showed so much thin black leg.
Ermengarde was too slow a girl to be equal to such a situation. She
could not think of anything to say. She knew what had happened, but,
somehow, she had never imagined Sara could look like this-- so odd and
poor and almost like a servant. It made her quite miserable, and she
could do nothing but break into a short hysterical laugh and exclaim--
aimlessly and as if without any meaning, "Oh, Sara, is that you?"
"Yes," answered Sara, and suddenly a strange thought passed through
her mind and made her face flush. She held the pile of garments in her
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arms, and her chin rested upon the top of it to keep it steady. Something
in the look of her straight-gazing eyes made Ermengarde lose her wits still
more. She felt as if Sara had changed into a new kind of girl, and she
had never known her before. Perhaps it was because she had suddenly
grown poor and had to mend things and work like Becky.
"Oh," she stammered. "How--how are you?"
"I don't know," Sara replied. "How are you?"
"I'm--I'm quite well," said Ermengarde, overwhelmed with shyness.
Then spasmodically she thought of something to say which seemed more
intimate. "Are you--are you very unhappy?" she said in a rush.
Then Sara was guilty of an injustice. Just at that moment her torn
heart swelled within her, and she felt that if anyone was as stupid as that,
one had better get away from her.
"What do you think?" she said. "Do you think I am very happy?"
And she marched past her without another word.
In course of time she realized that if her wretchedness had not made
her forget things, she would have known that poor, dull Ermengarde was
not to be blamed for her unready, awkward ways. She was always
awkward, and the more she felt, the more stupid she was given to being.
But the sudden thought which had flashed upon her had made her
over-sensitive.
"She is like the others," she had thought. "She does not really want
to talk to me. She knows no one does."
So for several weeks a barrier stood between them. When they met
by chance Sara looked the other way, and Ermengarde felt too stiff and
embarrassed to speak. Sometimes they nodded to each other in passing,
but there were times when they did not even exchange a greeting.
"If she would rather not talk to me," Sara thought, "I will keep out of
her way. Miss Minchin makes that easy enough."
Miss Minchin made it so easy that at last they scarcely saw each other
at all. At that time it was noticed that Ermengarde was more stupid than
ever, and that she looked listless and unhappy. She used to sit in the
window-seat, huddled in a heap, and stare out of the window without
speaking. Once Jessie, who was passing, stopped to look at her
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curiously.
"What are you crying for, Ermengarde?" she asked.
"I'm not crying," answered Ermengarde, in a muffled, unsteady voice.
"You are," said Jessie. "A great big tear just rolled down the bridge
of your nose and dropped off at the end of it. And there goes another."
"Well," said Ermengarde, "I'm miserable--and no one need interfere."
And she turned her plump back and took out her handkerchief and boldly
hid her face in it.
That night, when Sara went to her attic, she was later than usual. She
had been kept at work until after the hour at which the pupils went to bed,
and after that she had gone to her lessons in the lonely schoolroom.
When she reached the top of the stairs, she was surprised to see a glimmer
of light coming from under the attic door.
"Nobody goes there but myself," she thought quickly, "but someone
has lighted a candle."
Someone had, indeed, lighted a candle, and it was not burning in the
kitchen candlestick she was expected to use, but in one of those belonging
to the pupils' bedrooms. The someone was sitting upon the battered
footstool, and was dressed in her nightgown and wrapped up in a red
shawl. It was Ermengarde.
"Ermengarde!" cried Sara. She was so startled that she was almost
frightened. "You will get into trouble."
Ermengarde stumbled up from her footstool. She shuffled across the
attic in her bedroom slippers, which were too large for her. Her eyes and
nose were pink with crying.
"I know I shall--if I'm found out." she said. "But I don't care-- I
don't care a bit. Oh, Sara, please tell me. What is the matter? Why
don't you like me any more?"
Something in her voice made the familiar lump rise in Sara's throat.
It was so affectionate and simple--so like the old Ermengarde who had
asked her to be "best friends." It sounded as if she had not meant what
she had seemed to mean during these past weeks.
"I do like you," Sara answered. "I thought--you see, everything is
different now. I thought you--were different.
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Ermengarde opened her wet eyes wide.
"Why, it was you who were different!" she cried. "You didn't want to
talk to me. I didn't know what to do. It was you who were different
after I came back."
Sara thought a moment. She saw she had made a mistake.
"I AM different," she explained, "though not in the way you think.
Miss Minchin does not want me to talk to the girls. Most of them don't
want to talk to me. I thought--perhaps--you didn't. So I tried to keep
out of your way."
"Oh, Sara," Ermengarde almost wailed in her reproachful dismay.
And then after one more look they rushed into each other's arms. It must
be confessed that Sara's small black head lay for some minutes on the
shoulder covered by the red shawl. When Ermengarde had seemed to
desert her, she had felt horribly lonely.
Afterward they sat down upon the floor together, Sara clasping her
knees with her arms, and Ermengarde rolled up in her shawl.
Ermengarde looked at the odd, big-eyed little face adoringly.
"I couldn't bear it any more," she said. "I dare say you could live
without me, Sara; but I couldn't live without you. I was nearly DEAD>.
So tonight, when I was crying under the bedclothes, I thought all at once
of creeping up here and just begging you to let us be friends again."
"You are nicer than I am," said Sara. "I was too proud to try and
make friends. You see, now that trials have come, they have shown that I
am NOT a nice child. I was afraid they would. Perhaps"--wrinkling her
forehead wisely--"that is what they were sent for."
"I don't see any good in them," said Ermengarde stoutly.
"Neither do I--to speak the truth," admitted Sara, frankly. "But I
suppose there MIGHT be good in things, even if we don't see it. There
MIGHT>"--DOUBTFULLY--"B good in Miss Minchin."
Ermengarde looked round the attic with a rather fearsome curiosity.
"Sara," she said, "do you think you can bear living here?"
Sara looked round also.
"If I pretend it's quite different, I can," she answered; "or if I pretend it
is a place in a story."
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She spoke slowly. Her imagination was beginning to work for her.
It had not worked for her at all since her troubles had come upon her.
She had felt as if it had been stunned.
"Other people have lived in worse places. Think of the Count of
Monte Cristo in the dungeons of the Chateau d'If. And think of the
people in the Bastille!"
"The Bastille," half whispered Ermengarde, watching her and
beginning to be fascinated. She remembered stories of the French
Revolution which Sara had been able to fix in her mind by her dramatic
relation of them. No one but Sara could have done it.
A well-known glow came into Sara's eyes.
"Yes," she said, hugging her knees, "that will be a good place to
pretend about. I am a prisoner in the Bastille. I have been here for
years and years--and years; and everybody has forgotten about me. Miss
Minchin is the jailer--and Becky"--a sudden light adding itself to the glow
in her eyes--"Becky is the prisoner in the next cell."
She turned to Ermengarde, looking quite like the old Sara.
"I shall pretend that," she said; "and it will be a great comfort."
Ermengarde was at once enraptured and awed.
"And will you tell me all about it?" she said. "May I creep up here at
night, whenever it is safe, and hear the things you have made up in the day?
It will seem as if we were more `best friends' than ever."
"Yes," answered Sara, nodding. "Adversity tries people, and mine
has tried you and proved how nice you are."
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9
Melchisedec
The third person in the trio was Lottie. She was a small thing and
did not know what adversity meant, and was much bewildered by the
alteration she saw in her young adopted mother. She had heard it
rumored that strange things had happened to Sara, but she could not
understand why she looked different--why she wore an old black frock
and came into the schoolroom only to teach instead of to sit in her place of
honor and learn lessons herself. There had been much whispering among
the little ones when it had been discovered that Sara no longer lived in the
rooms in which Emily had so long sat in state. Lottie's chief difficulty
was that Sara said so little when one asked her questions. At seven
mysteries must be made very clear if one is to understand them.
"Are you very poor now, Sara?" she had asked confidentially the first
morning her friend took charge of the small French class. "Are you as
poor as a beggar?" She thrust a fat hand into the slim one and opened
round, tearful eyes. "I don't want you to be as poor as a beggar."
She looked as if she was going to cry. And Sara hurriedly consoled
her.
"Beggars have nowhere to live," she said courageously. "I have a
place to live in."
"Where do you live?" persisted Lottle. "The new girl sleeps in your
room, and it isn't pretty any more."
"I live in another room," said Sara.
"Is it a nice one?" inquired Lottie. "I want to go and see it."
"You must not talk," said Sara. "Miss Minchin is looking at us. She
will be angry with me for letting you whisper."
She had found out already that she was to be held accountable for
everything which was objected to. If the children were not attentive, if
they talked, if they were restless, it was she who would be reproved.
But Lottie was a determined little person. If Sara would not tell her
where she lived, she would find out in some other way. She talked to her
small companions and hung about the elder girls and listened when they
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were gossiping; and acting upon certain information they had
unconsciously let drop, she started late one afternoon on a voyage of
discovery, climbing stairs she had never known the existence of, until she
reached the attic floor. There she found two doors near each other, and
opening one, she saw her beloved Sara standing upon an old table and
looking out of a window.
"Sara!" she cried, aghast. "Mamma Sara!" She was aghast because
the attic was so bare and ugly and seemed so far away from all the world.
Her short legs had seemed to have been mounting hundreds of stairs.
Sara turned round at the sound of her voice. It was her turn to be
aghast. What would happen now? If Lottie began to cry and any one
chanced to hear, they were both lost. She jumped down from her table
and ran to the child.
"Don't cry and make a noise," she implored. "I shall be scolded if
you do, and I have been scolded all day. It's--it's not such a bad room,
Lottie."
"Isn't it?" gasped Lottie, and as she looked round it she bit her lip.
She was a spoiled child yet, but she was fond enough of her adopted
parent to make an effort to control herself for her sake. Then, somehow,
it was quite possible that any place in which Sara lived might turn out to
be nice. "Why isn't it, Sara?" she almost whispered.
Sara hugged her close and tried to laugh. There was a sort of comfort
in the warmth of the plump, childish body. She had had a hard day and
had been staring out of the windows with hot eyes.
"You can see all sorts of things you can't see downstairs," she said.
"What sort of things?" demanded Lottie, with that cu{ri}osity Sara
could always awaken even in bigger girls.
"Chimneys--quite close to us--with smoke curling up in wreaths and
clouds and going up into the sky--and sparrows hopping about and talking
to each other just as if they were people-- and other attic windows where
heads may pop out any minute and you can wonder who they belong to.
And it all feels as high up-- as if it was another world."
"Oh, let me see it!" cried Lottie. "Lift me up!"
Sara lifted her up, and they stood on the old table together and leaned
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on the edge of the flat window in the roof, and looked out.
Anyone who has not done this does not know what a different world
they saw. The slates spread out on either side of them and slanted down
into the rain gutter-pipes. The sparrows, being at home there, twittered and
hopped about quite without fear. Two of them perched on the chimney
top nearest and quarrelled with each other fiercely until one pecked the
other and drove him away. The garret window next to theirs was shut
because the house next door was empty.
"I wish someone lived there," Sara said. "It is so close that if there
was a little girl in the attic, we could talk to each other through the
windows and climb over to see each other, if we were not afraid of
falling."
The sky seemed so much nearer than when one saw it from the street,
that Lottie was enchanted. From the attic window, among the chimney
pots, the things which were happening in the world below seemed almost
unreal. One scarcely believed in the existence of Miss Minchin and Miss
Amelia and the schoolroom, and the roll of wheels in the square seemed a
sound belonging to another existence.
"Oh, Sara!" cried Lottie, cuddling in her guarding arm. "I like this
attic--I like it! It is nicer than downstairs!"
"Look at that sparrow," whispered Sara. "I wish I had some crumbs
to throw to him."
"I have some!" came in a little shriek from Lottie. "I have part of a
bun in my pocket; I bought it with my penny yesterday, and I saved a bit."
When they threw out a few crumbs the sparrow jumped and flew away
to an adjacent chimney top. He was evidently not accustomed to
intimates in attics, and unexpected crumbs startled him. But when Lottie
remained quite still and Sara chirped very softly-- almost as if she were a
sparrow herself--he saw that the thing which had alarmed him represented
hospitality, after all. He put his head on one side, and from his perch on
the chimney looked down at the crumbs with twinkling eyes. Lottie
could scarcely keep still.
"Will he come? Will he come?" she whispered.
"His eyes look as if he would," Sara whispered back. "He is thinking
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and thinking whether he dare. Yes, he will! Yes, he is coming!"
He flew down and hopped toward the crumbs, but stopped a few
inches away from them, putting his head on one side again, as if reflecting
on the chances that Sara and Lottie might turn out to be big cats and jump
on him. At last his heart told him they were really nicer than they looked,
and he hopped nearer and nearer, darted at the biggest crumb with a
lightning peck, seized it, and carried it away to the other side of his
chimney.
"Now he KNOWS>, said Sara. "And he will come back for the
others."
He did come back, and even brought a friend, and the friend went
away and brought a relative, and among them they made a hearty meal
over which they twittered and chattered and exclaimed, stopping every
now and then to put their heads on one side and examine Lottie and Sara.
Lottie was so delighted that she quite forgot her first shocked impression
of the attic. In fact, when she was lifted down from the table and
returned to earthly things, as it were, Sara was able to point out to her
many beauties in the room which she herself would not have suspected the
existence of.
"It is so little and so high above everything," she said, "that it is almost
like a nest in a tree. The slanting ceiling is so funny. See, you can
scarcely stand up at this end of the room; and when the morning begins to
come I can lie in bed and look right up into the sky through that flat
window in the roof. It is like a square patch of light. If the sun is going
to shine, little pink clouds float about, and I feel as if I could touch them.
And if it rains, the drops patter and patter as if they were saying something
nice. Then if there are stars, you can lie and try to count how many go
into the patch. It takes such a lot. And just look at that tiny, rusty grate
in the corner. If it was polished and there was a fire in it, just think how
nice it would be. You see, it's really a beautiful little room."
She was walking round the small place, holding Lottie's hand and
making gestures which described all the beauties she was making herself
see. She quite made Lottie see them, too. Lottie could always believe
in the things Sara made pictures of.
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"You see," she said, "there could be a thick, soft blue Indian rug on the
floor; and in that corner there could be a soft little sofa, with cushions to
curl up on; and just over it could be a shelf full of books so that one could
reach them easily; and there could be a fur rug before the fire, and
hangings on the wall to cover up the whitewash, and pictures. They
would have to be little ones, but they could be beautiful; and there could
be a lamp with a deep rose-colored shade; and a table in the middle, with
things to have tea with; and a little fat copper kettle singing on the hob;
and the bed could be quite different. It could be made soft and covered
with a lovely silk coverlet. It could be beautiful. And perhaps we could
coax the sparrows until we made such friends with them that they would
come and peck at the window and ask to be let in."
"Oh, Sara!" cried Lottie. "I should like to live here!"
When Sara had persuaded her to go downstairs again, and, after setting
her on her way, had come back to her attic, she stood in the middle of it
and looked about her. The enchantment of her imaginings for Lottie had
died away. The bed was hard and covered with its dingy quilt. The
whitewashed wall showed its broken patches, the floor was cold and bare,
the grate was broken and rusty, and the battered footstool, tilted sideways
on its injured leg, the only seat in the room. She sat down on it for a few
minutes and let her head drop in her hands. The mere fact that Lottie had
come and gone away again made things seem a little worse-- just as
perhaps prisoners feel a little more desolate after visitors come and go,
leaving them behind.
"It's a lonely place," she said. "Sometimes it's the loneliest place in
the world."
She was sitting in this way when her attention was attracted by a slight
sound near her. She lifted her head to see where it came from, and if she
had been a nervous child she would have left her seat on the battered
footstool in a great hurry. A large rat was sitting up on his hind quarters
and sniffing the air in an interested manner. Some of Lottie's crumbs had
dropped upon the floor and their scent had drawn him out of his hole.
He looked so queer and so like a gray-whiskered dwarf or gnome that
Sara was rather fascinated. He looked at her with his bright eyes, as if he
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were asking a question. He was evidently so doubtful that one of the
child's queer thoughts came into her mind.
"I dare say it is rather hard to be a rat," she mused. "Nobody likes
you. People jump and run away and scream out, `Oh, a horrid rat!' I
shouldn't like people to scream and jump and say, `Oh, a horrid Sara!' the
moment they saw me. And set traps for me, and pretend they were
dinner. It's so different to be a sparrow. But nobody asked this rat if he
wanted to be a rat when he was made. Nobody said, `Wouldn't you
rather be a sparrow?'"
She had sat so quietly that the rat had begun to take courage. He was
very much afraid of her, but perhaps he had a heart like the sparrow and it
told him that she was not a thing which pounced. He was very hungry.
He had a wife and a large family in the wall, and they had had frightfully
bad luck for several days. He had left the children crying bitterly, and
felt he would risk a good deal for a few crumbs, so he cautiously dropped
upon his feet.
"Come on," said Sara; "I'm not a trap. You can have them, poor thing!
Prisoners in the Bastille used to make friends with rats. Suppose I make
friends with you."
How it is that animals understand things I do not know, but it is certain
that they do understand. Perhaps there is a language which is not made
of words and everything in the world understands it. Perhaps there is a
soul hidden in everything and it can always speak, without even making a
sound, to another soul. But whatsoever was the reason, the rat knew
from that moment that he was safe-- even though he was a rat. He knew
that this young human being sitting on the red footstool would not jump
up and terrify him with wild, sharp noises or throw heavy objects at him
which, if they did not fall and crush him, would send him limping in his
scurry back to his hole. He was really a very nice rat, and did not mean
the least harm. When he had stood on his hind legs and sniffed the air,
with his bright eyes fixed on Sara, he had hoped that she would understand
this, and would not begin by hating him as an enemy. When the
mysterious thing which speaks without saying any words told him that she
would not, he went softly toward the crumbs and began to eat them. As
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he did it he glanced every now and then at Sara, just as the sparrows had
done, and his expression was so very apologetic that it touched her heart.
She sat and watched him without making any movement. One crumb
was very much larger than the others--in fact, it could scarcely be called a
crumb. It was evident that he wanted that piece very much, but it lay
quite near the footstool and he was still rather timid.
"I believe he wants it to carry to his family in the wall," Sara thought.
"If I do not stir at all, perhaps he will come and get it."
She scarcely allowed herself to breathe, she was so deeply interested.
The rat shuffled a little nearer and ate a few more crumbs, then he stopped
and sniffed delicately, giving a side glance at the occupant of the footstool;
then he darted at the piece of bun with something very like the sudden
boldness of the sparrow, and the instant he had possession of it fled back
to the wall, slipped down a crack in the skirting board, and was gone.
"I knew he wanted it for his children," said Sara. "I do believe I
could make friends with him."
A week or so afterward, on one of the rare nights when Ermengarde
found it safe to steal up to the attic, when she tapped on the door with the
tips of her fingers Sara did not come to her for two or three minutes.
There was, indeed, such a silence in the room at first that Ermengarde
wondered if she could have fallen asleep. Then, to her surprise, she
heard her utter a little, low laugh and speak coaxingly to someone.
"There!" Ermengarde heard her say. "Take it and go home,
Melchisedec! Go home to your wife!"
Almost immediately Sara opened the door, and when she did so she
found Ermengarde standing with alarmed eyes upon the threshold.
"Who--who ARE you talking to, Sara?" she gasped out.
Sara drew her in cautiously, but she looked as if something pleased
and amused her.
"You must promise not to be frightened--not to scream the least bit, or
I can't tell you," she answered.
Ermengarde felt almost inclined to scream on the spot, but managed to
control herself. She looked all round the attic and saw no one. And yet
Sara had certainly been speaking TO someone. She thought of ghosts.
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"Is it--something that will frighten me?" she asked timorously.
"Some people are afraid of them," said Sara. "I was at first-- but I am
not now."
"Was it--a ghost?" quaked Ermengarde.
"No," said Sara, laughing. "It was my rat."
Ermengarde made one bound, and landed in the middle of the little
dingy bed. She tucked her feet under her nightgown and the red shawl.
She did not scream, but she gasped with fright.
"Oh! Oh!" she cried under her breath. "A rat! A rat!"
"I was afraid you would be frightened," said Sara. "But you needn't
be. I am making him tame. He actually knows me and comes out when
I call him. Are you too frightened to want to see him?"
The truth was that, as the days had gone on and, with the aid of scraps
brought up from the kitchen, her curious friendship had developed, she
had gradually forgotten that the timid creature she was becoming familiar
with was a mere rat.
At first Ermengarde was too much alarmed to do anything but huddle
in a heap upon the bed and tuck up her feet, but the sight of Sara's
composed little countenance and the story of Melchisedec's first
appearance began at last to rouse her curiosity, and she leaned forward
over the edge of the bed and watched Sara go and kneel down by the hole
in the skirting board.
"He--he won't run out quickly and jump on the bed, will he?" she said.
"No," answered Sara. "He's as polite as we are. He is just like a
person. Now watch!"
She began to make a low, whistling sound--so low and coaxing that it
could only have been heard in entire stillness. She did it several times,
looking entirely absorbed in it. Ermengarde thought she looked as if she
were working a spell. And at last, evidently in response to it, a gray-
whiskered, bright-eyed head peeped out of the hole. Sara had some
crumbs in her hand. She dropped them, and Melchisedec came quietly
forth and ate them. A piece of larger size than the rest he took and
carried in the most businesslike manner back to his home.
"You see," said Sara, "that is for his wife and children. He is very
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nice. He only eats the little bits. After he goes back I can always hear
his family squeaking for joy. There are three kinds of squeaks. One
kind is the children's, and one is Mrs. Melchisedec's, and one is
Melchisedec's own."
Ermengarde began to laugh.
"Oh, Sara!" she said. "You ARE queer--but you are nice."
"I know I am queer," admitted Sara, cheerfully; "and I TRY to be
nice." She rubbed her forehead with her little brown paw, and a puzzled,
tender look came into her face. "Papa always laughed at me," she said;
"but I liked it. He thought I was queer, but he liked me to make up things.
I--I can't help making up things. If I didn't, I don't believe I could live."
She paused and glanced around the attic. "I'm sure I couldn't live here,"
she added in a low voice.
Ermengarde was interested, as she always was. "When you talk
about things," she said, "they seem as if they grew real. You talk about
Melchisedec as if he was a person."
"He IS a person," said Sara. "He gets hungry and frightened, just as
we do; and he is married and has children. How do we know he doesn't
think things, just as we do? His eyes look as if he was a person. That
was why I gave him a name."
She sat down on the floor in her favorite attitude, holding her knees.
"Besides," she said, "he is a Bastille rat sent to be my friend. I can
always get a bit of bread the cook has thrown away, and it is quite enough
to support him."
"Is it the Bastille yet?" asked Ermengarde, eagerly. "Do you always
pretend it is the Bastille?"
"Nearly always," answered Sara. "Sometimes I try to pretend it is
another kind of place; but the Bastille is generally easiest-- particularly
when it is cold."
Just at that moment Ermengarde almost jumped off the bed, she was so
startled by a sound she heard. It was like two distinct knocks on the wall.
"What is that?" she exclaimed.
Sara got up from the floor and answered quite dramatically:
"It is the prisoner in the next cell."
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"Becky!" cried Ermengarde, enraptured.
"Yes," said Sara. "Listen; the two knocks meant, `Prisoner, are you
there?'"
She knocked three times on the wall herself, as if in answer.
"That means, `Yes, I am here, and all is well.'"
Four knocks came from Becky's side of the wall.
"That means," explained Sara, "`Then, fellow-sufferer, we will sleep in
peace. Good night.'"
Ermengarde quite beamed with delight.
"Oh, Sara!" she whispered joyfully. "It is like a story!"
"It IS a story," said Sara. "EVERYTHING'S a story. You are a
story-- I am a story. Miss Minchin is a story."
And she sat down again and talked until Ermengarde forgot that she
was a sort of escaped prisoner herself, and had to be reminded by Sara that
she could not remain in the Bastille all night, but must steal noiselessly
downstairs again and creep back into her deserted bed.
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10
The Indian Gentleman
But it was a perilous thing for Ermengarde and Lottie to make
pilgrimages to the attic. They could never be quite sure when Sara would
be there, and they could scarcely ever be certain that Miss Amelia would
not make a tour of inspection through the bedrooms after the pupils were
supposed to be asleep. So their visits were rare ones, and Sara lived a
strange and lonely life. It was a lonelier life when she was downstairs
than when she was in her attic. She had no one to talk to; and when she
was sent out on errands and walked through the streets, a forlorn little
figure carrying a basket or a parcel, trying to hold her hat on when the
wind was blowing, and feeling the water soak through her shoes when it
was raining, she felt as if the crowds hurrying past her made her loneliness
greater. When she had been the Princess Sara, driving through the streets
in her brougham, or walking, attended by Mariette, the sight of her bright,
eager little face and picturesque coats and hats had often caused people to
look after her. A happy, beautifully cared for little girl naturally attracts
attention. Shabby, poorly dressed children are not rare enough and pretty
enough to make people turn around to look at them and smile. No one
looked at Sara in these days, and no one seemed to see her as she hurried
along the crowded pavements. She had begun to grow very fast, and, as
she was dressed only in such clothes as the plainer remnants of her
wardrobe would supply, she knew she looked very queer, indeed. All her
valuable garments had been disposed of, and such as had been left for her
use she was expected to wear so long as she could put them on at all.
Sometimes, when she passed a shop window with a mirror in it, she
almost laughed outright on catching a glimpse of herself, and sometimes
her face went red and she bit her lip and turned away.
In the evening, when she passed houses whose windows were lighted
up, she used to look into the warm rooms and amuse herself by imagining
things about the people she saw sitting before the fires or about the tables.
It always interested her to catch glimpses of rooms before the shutters
were closed. There were several families in the square in which Miss
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Minchin lived, with which she had become quite familiar in a way of her
own. The one she liked best she called the Large Family. She called it
the Large Family not because the members of it were big--for, indeed,
most of them were little-- but because there were so many of them.
There were eight children in the Large Family, and a stout, rosy mother,
and a stout, rosy father, and a stout, rosy grandmother, and any number of
servants. The eight children were always either being taken out to walk
or to ride in perambulators by comfortable nurses, or they were going to
drive with their mamma, or they were flying to the door in the evening to
meet their papa and kiss him and dance around him and drag off his
overcoat and look in the pockets for packages, or they were crowding
about the nursery windows and looking out and pushing each other and
laughing--in fact, they were always doing something enjoyable and suited
to the tastes of a large family. Sara was quite fond of them, and had
given them names out of books-- quite romantic names. She called them
the Montmorencys when she did not call them the Large Family. The fat,
fair baby with the lace cap was Ethelberta Beauchamp Montmorency; the
next baby was Violet Cholmondeley Montmorency; the little boy who
could just stagger and who had such round legs was Sydney Cecil Vivian
Montmorency; and then came Lilian Evangeline Maud Marion, Rosalind
Gladys, Guy Clarence, Veronica Eustacia, and Claude Harold Hector.
One evening a very funny thing happened--though, perhaps, in one
sense it was not a funny thing at all.
Several of the Montmorencys were evidently going to a children's
party, and just as Sara was about to pass the door they were crossing the
pavement to get into the carriage which was waiting for them. Veronica
Eustacia and Rosalind Gladys, in white-lace frocks and lovely sashes, had
just got in, and Guy Clarence, aged five, was following them. He was
such a pretty fellow and had such rosy cheeks and blue eyes, and such a
darling little round head covered with curls, that Sara forgot her basket
and shabby cloak altogether--in fact, forgot everything but that she wanted
to look at him for a moment. So she paused and looked.
It was Christmas time, and the Large Family had been hearing many
stories about children who were poor and had no mammas and papas to
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fill their stockings and take them to the pantomime--children who were, in
fact, cold and thinly clad and hungry. In the stories, kind people--
sometimes little boys and girls with tender hearts-- invariably saw the poor
children and gave them money or rich gifts, or took them home to
beautiful dinners. Guy Clarence had been affected to tears that very
afternoon by the reading of such a story, and he had burned with a desire
to find such a poor child and give her a certain sixpence he possessed, and
thus provide for her for life. An entire sixpence, he was sure, would
mean affluence for evermore. As he crossed the strip of red carpet laid
across the pavement from the door to the carriage, he had this very
sixpence in the pocket of his very short man-o-war trousers; And just as
Rosalind Gladys got into the vehicle and jumped on the seat in order to
feel the cushions spring under her, he saw Sara standing on the wet
pavement in her shabby frock and hat, with her old basket on her arm,
looking at him hungrily.
He thought that her eyes looked hungry because she had perhaps had
nothing to eat for a long time. He did not know that they looked so
because she was hungry for the warm, merry life his home held and his
rosy face spoke of, and that she had a hungry wish to snatch him in her
arms and kiss him. He only knew that she had big eyes and a thin face
and thin legs and a common basket and poor clothes. So he put his hand
in his pocket and found his sixpence and walked up to her benignly.
"Here, poor little girl," he said. "Here is a sixpence. I will give it to
you."
Sara started, and all at once realized that she looked exactly like poor
children she had seen, in her better days, waiting on the pavement to
watch her as she got out of her brougham. And she had given them
pennies many a time. Her face went red and then it went pale, and for a
second she felt as if she could not take the dear little sixpence.
"Oh, no!" she said. "Oh, no, thank you; I mustn't take it, indeed!"
Her voice was so unlike an ordinary street child's voice and her
manner was so like the manner of a well-bred little person that Veronica
Eustacia (whose real name was Janet) and Rosalind Gladys (who was
really called Nora) leaned forward to listen.
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But Guy Clarence was not to be thwarted in his benevolence. He
thrust the sixpence into her hand.
"Yes, you must take it, poor little girl!" he insisted stoutly. "You can
buy things to eat with it. It is a whole sixpence!"
There was something so honest and kind in his face, and he looked so
likely to be heartbrokenly disappointed if she did not take it, that Sara
knew she must not refuse him. To be as proud as that would be a cruel
thing. So she actually put her pride in her pocket, though it must be
admitted her cheeks burned.
"Thank you," she said. "You are a kind, kind little darling thing."
And as he scrambled joyfully into the carriage she went away, trying to
smile, though she caught her breath quickly and her eyes were shining
through a mist. She had known that she looked odd and shabby, but until
now she had not known that she might be taken for a beggar.
As the Large Family's carriage drove away, the children inside it were
talking with interested excitement.
"Oh, Donald," (this was Guy Clarence's name), Janet exclaimed
alarmedly, "why did you offer that little girl your sixpence? I'm sure she
is not a beggar!"
"She didn't speak like a beggar!" cried Nora. "And her face didn't
really look like a beggar's face!"
"Besides, she didn't beg," said Janet. "I was so afraid she might be
angry with you. You know, it makes people angry to be taken for
beggars when they are not beggars."
"She wasn't angry," said Donald, a trifle dismayed, but still firm.
"She laughed a little, and she said I was a kind, kind little darling thing.
And I was!"--stoutly. "It was my whole sixpence."
Janet and Nora exchanged glances.
"A beggar girl would never have said that," decided Janet. "She
would have said, `Thank yer kindly, little gentleman-- thank yer, sir;' and
perhaps she would have bobbed a curtsy."
Sara knew nothing about the fact, but from that time the Large Family
was as profoundly interested in her as she was in it. Faces used to appear
at the nursery windows when she passed, and many discussions
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concerning her were held round the fire.
"She is a kind of servant at the seminary," Janet said. "I don't believe
she belongs to anybody. I believe she is an orphan. But she is not a
beggar, however shabby she looks."
And afterward she was called by all of them, "The-little-girl-who- is-
not-a-beggar," which was, of course, rather a long name, and sounded very
funny sometimes when the youngest ones said it in a hurry.
Sara managed to bore a hole in the sixpence and hung it on an old bit
of narrow ribbon round her neck. Her affection for the Large Family
increased--as, indeed, her affection for everything she could love increased.
She grew fonder and fonder of Becky, and she used to look forward to the
two mornings a week when she went into the schoolroom to give the little
ones their French lesson. Her small pupils loved her, and strove with
each other for the privilege of standing close to her and insinuating their
small hands into hers. It fed her hungry heart to feel them nestling up to
her. She made such friends with the sparrows that when she stood upon
the table, put her head and shoulders out of the attic window, and chirped,
she heard almost immediately a flutter of wings and answering twitters,
and a little flock of dingy town birds appeared and alighted on the slates to
talk to her and make much of the crumbs she scattered. With
Melchisedec she had become so intimate that he actually brought Mrs.
Melchisedec with him sometimes, and now and then one or two of his
children. She used to talk to him, and, somehow, he looked quite as if he
understood.
There had grown in her mind rather a strange feeling about Emily, who
always sat and looked on at everything. It arose in one of her moments
of great desolateness. She would have liked to believe or pretend to
believe that Emily understood and sympathized with her. She did not
like to own to herself that her only companion could feel and hear nothing.
She used to put her in a chair sometimes and sit opposite to her on the old
red footstool, and stare and pretend about her until her own eyes would
grow large with something which was almost like fear--particularly at
night when everything was so still, when the only sound in the attic was
the occasional sudden scurry and squeak of Melchisedec's family in the
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wall. One of her "pretends" was that Emily was a kind of good witch
who could protect her. Sometimes, after she had stared at her until she
was wrought up to the highest pitch of fancifulness, she would ask her
questions and find herself ALMOST feeling as if she would presently
answer. But she never did.
"As to answering, though," said Sara, trying to console herself, "I don't
answer very often. I never answer when I can help it. When people are
insulting you, there is nothing so good for them as not to say a word--just
to look at them and THINK>. Miss Minchin turns pale with rage when I
do it, Miss Amelia looks frightened, and so do the girls. When you will
not fly into a passion people know you are stronger than they are, because
you are strong enough to hold in your rage, and they are not, and they say
stupid things they wish they hadn't said afterward. There's nothing so
strong as rage, except what makes you hold it in--that's stronger. It's a
good thing not to answer your enemies. I scarcely ever do. Perhaps
Emily is more like me than I am like myself. Perhaps she would rather
not answer her friends, even. She keeps it all in her heart."
But though she tried to satisfy herself with these arguments, she did
not find it easy. When, after a long, hard day, in which she had been sent
here and there, sometimes on long errands through wind and cold and rain,
she came in wet and hungry, and was sent out again because nobody chose
to remember that she was only a child, and that her slim legs might be
tired and her small body might be chilled; when she had been given only
harsh words and cold, slighting looks for thanks; when the cook had been
vulgar and insolent; when Miss Minchin had been in her worst mood, and
when she had seen the girls sneering among themselves at her shabbiness-
-then she was not always able to comfort her sore, proud, desolate heart
with fancies when Emily merely sat upright in her old chair and stared.
One of these nights, when she came up to the attic cold and hungry,
with a tempest raging in her young breast, Emily's stare seemed so vacant,
her sawdust legs and arms so inexpressive, that Sara lost all control over
herself. There was nobody but Emily-- no one in the world. And there
she sat.
"I shall die presently," she said at first.
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Emily simply stared.
"I can't bear this," said the poor child, trembling. "I know I shall die.
I'm cold; I'm wet; I'm starving to death. I've walked a thousand miles
today, and they have done nothing but scold me from morning until night.
And because I could not find that last thing the cook sent me for, they
would not give me any supper. Some men laughed at me because my old
shoes made me slip down in the mud. I'm covered with mud now. And
they laughed. Do you hear?"
She looked at the staring glass eyes and complacent face, and suddenly
a sort of heartbroken rage seized her. She lifted her little savage hand
and knocked Emily off the chair, bursting into a passion of sobbing--Sara
who never cried.
"You are nothing but a DOLL>! she cried. "Nothing but a doll-- doll-
-doll! You care for nothing. You are stuffed with sawdust. You never
had a heart. Nothing could ever make you feel. You are a DOLL>!"
Emily lay on the floor, with her legs ignominiously doubled up over her
head, and a new flat place on the end of her nose; but she was calm, even
dignified. Sara hid her face in her arms. The rats in the wall began to
fight and bite each other and squeak and scramble. Melchisedec was
chastising some of his family.
Sara's sobs gradually quieted themselves. It was so unlike her to
break down that she was surprised at herself. After a while she raised her
face and looked at Emily, who seemed to be gazing at her round the side
of one angle, and, somehow, by this time actually with a kind of glassy-
eyed sympathy. Sara bent and picked her up. Remorse overtook her.
She even smiled at herself a very little smile.
"You can't help being a doll," she said with a resigned sigh, "any more
than Lavinia and Jessie can help not having any sense. We are not all
made alike. Perhaps you do your sawdust best." And she kissed her
and shook her clothes straight, and put her back upon her chair.
She had wished very much that some one would take the empty house
next door. She wished it because of the attic window which was so near
hers. It seemed as if it would be so nice to see it propped open someday
and a head and shoulders rising out of the square aperture.
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"If it looked a nice head," she thought, "I might begin by saying,
`Good morning,' and all sorts of things might happen. But, of course, it's
not really likely that anyone but under servants would sleep there."
One morning, on turning the corner of the square after a visit to the
grocer's, the butcher's, and the baker's, she saw, to her great delight, that
during her rather prolonged absence, a van full of furniture had stopped
before the next house, the front doors were thrown open, and men in shirt
sleeves were going in and out carrying heavy packages and pieces of
furniture.
"It's taken!" she said. "It really IS taken! Oh, I do hope a nice head
will look out of the attic window!"
She would almost have liked to join the group of loiterers who had
stopped on the pavement to watch the things carried in. She had an idea
that if she could see some of the furniture she could guess something
about the people it belonged to.
"Miss Minchin's tables and chairs are just like her," she thought; "I
remember thinking that the first minute I saw her, even though I was so
little. I told papa afterward, and he laughed and said it was true. I am
sure the Large Family have fat, comfortable armchairs and sofas, and I can
see that their red-flowery wallpaper is exactly like them. It's warm and
cheerful and kind-looking and happy."
She was sent out for parsley to the greengrocer's later in the day, and
when she came up the area steps her heart gave quite a quick beat of
recognition. Several pieces of furniture had been set out of the van upon
the pavement. There was a beautiful table of elaborately wrought
teakwood, and some chairs, and a screen covered with rich Oriental
embroidery. The sight of them gave her a weird, homesick feeling. She
had seen things so like them in India. One of the things Miss Minchin
had taken from her was a carved teakwood desk her father had sent her.
"They are beautiful things," she said; "they look as if they ought to
belong to a nice person. All the things look rather grand. I suppose it is
a rich family."
The vans of furniture came and were unloaded and gave place to
others all the day. Several times it so happened that Sara had an
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opportunity of seeing things carried in. It became plain that she had been
right in guessing that the newcomers were people of large means. All the
furniture was rich and beautiful, and a great deal of it was Oriental.
Wonderful rugs and draperies and ornaments were taken from the vans,
many pictures, and books enough for a library. Among other things there
was a superb god Buddha in a splendid shrine.
"Someone in the family MUST have been in India," Sara thought.
"They have got used to Indian things and like them. I AM glad. I shall
feel as if they were friends, even if a head never looks out of the attic
window."
When she was taking in the evening's milk for the cook (there was
really no odd job she was not called upon to do), she saw something occur
which made the situation more interesting than ever. The handsome,
rosy man who was the father of the Large Family walked across the square
in the most matter-of-fact manner, and ran up the steps of the next-door
house. He ran up them as if he felt quite at home and expected to run up
and down them many a time in the future. He stayed inside quite a long
time, and several times came out and gave directions to the workmen, as if
he had a right to do so. It was quite certain that he was in some intimate
way connected with the newcomers and was acting for them.
"If the new people have children," Sara speculated, "the Large Family
children will be sure to come and play with them, and they MIGHT come
up into the attic just for fun."
At night, after her work was done, Becky came in to see her fellow
prisoner and bring her news.
"It's a' Nindian gentleman that's comin' to live next door, miss," she
said. "I don't know whether he's a black gentleman or not, but he's a
Nindian one. He's very rich, an' he's ill, an' the gentleman of the Large
Family is his lawyer. He's had a lot of trouble, an' it's made him ill an'
low in his mind. He worships idols, miss. He's an 'eathen an' bows
down to wood an' stone. I seen a' idol bein' carried in for him to worship.
Somebody had oughter send him a trac'. You can get a trac' for a penny."
Sara laughed a little.
"I don't believe he worships that idol," she said; "some people like to
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keep them to look at because they are interesting. My papa had a
beautiful one, and he did not worship it."
But Becky was rather inclined to prefer to believe that the new
neighbor was "an 'eathen." It sounded so much more romantic than that
he should merely be the ordinary kind of gentleman who went to church
with a prayer book. She sat and talked long that night of what he would
be like, of what his wife would be like if he had one, and of what his
children would be like if they had children. Sara saw that privately she
could not help hoping very much that they would all be black, and would
wear turbans, and, above all, that-- like their parent--they would all be
"'eathens."
"I never lived next door to no 'eathens, miss," she said; "I should like
to see what sort o' ways they'd have."
It was several weeks before her curiosity was satisfied, and then it was
revealed that the new occupant had neither wife nor children. He was a
solitary man with no family at all, and it was evident that he was shattered
in health and unhappy in mind.
A carriage drove up one day and stopped before the house. When the
footman dismounted from the box and opened the door the gentleman who
was the father of the Large Family got out first. After him there
descended a nurse in uniform, then came down the steps two men-servants.
They came to assist their master, who, when he was helped out of the
carriage, proved to be a man with a haggard, distressed face, and a
skeleton body wrapped in furs. He was carried up the steps, and the head
of the Large Family went with him, looking very anxious. Shortly
afterward a doctor's carriage arrived, and the doctor went in--plainly to
take care of him.
"There is such a yellow gentleman next door, Sara," Lottie whispered
at the French class afterward. "Do you think he is a Chinee? The
geography says the Chinee men are yellow."
"No, he is not Chinese," Sara whispered back; "he is very ill. Go on
with your exercise, Lottie. `Non, monsieur. Je n'ai pas le canif de mon
oncle.'"
That was the beginning of the story of the Indian gentleman.
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11
Ram Dass
There were fine sunsets even in the square, sometimes. One could
only see parts of them, however, between the chimneys and over the roofs.
From the kitchen windows one could not see them at all, and could only
guess that they were going on because the bricks looked warm and the air
rosy or yellow for a while, or perhaps one saw a blazing glow strike a
particular pane of glass somewhere. There was, however, one place from
which one could see all the splendor of them: the piles of red or gold
clouds in the west; or the purple ones edged with dazzling brightness; or
the little fleecy, floating ones, tinged with rose-color and looking like
flights of pink doves scurrying across the blue in a great hurry if there was
a wind. The place where one could see all this, and seem at the same
time to breathe a purer air, was, of course, the attic window. When the
square suddenly seemed to begin to glow in an enchanted way and look
wonderful in spite of its sooty trees and railings, Sara knew something was
going on in the sky; and when it was at all possible to leave the kitchen
without being missed or called back, she invariably stole away and crept
up the flights of stairs, and, climbing on the old table, got her head and
body as far out of the window as possible. When she had accomplished
this, she always drew a long breath and looked all round her. It used to
seem as if she had all the sky and the world to herself. No one else ever
looked out of the other attics. Generally the skylights were closed; but
even if they were propped open to admit air, no one seemed to come near
them. And there Sara would stand, sometimes turning her face upward to
the blue which seemed so friendly and near--just like a lovely vaulted
ceiling--sometimes watching the west and all the wonderful things that
happened there: the clouds melting or drifting or waiting softly to be
changed pink or crimson or snow-white or purple or pale dove-gray.
Sometimes they made islands or great mountains enclosing lakes of deep
turquoise-blue, or liquid amber, or chrysoprase-green; sometimes dark
headlands jutted into strange, lost seas; sometimes slender strips of
wonderful lands joined other wonderful lands together. There were
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places where it seemed that one could run or climb or stand and wait to
see what next was coming--until, perhaps, as it all melted, one could float
away. At least it seemed so to Sara, and nothing had ever been quite so
beautiful to her as the things she saw as she stood on the table--her body
half out of the skylight--the sparrows twittering with sunset softness on the
slates. The sparrows always seemed to her to twitter with a sort of
subdued softness just when these marvels were going on.
There was such a sunset as this a few days after the Indian gentleman
was brought to his new home; and, as it fortunately happened that the
afternoon's work was done in the kitchen and nobody had ordered her to
go anywhere or perform any task, Sara found it easier than usual to slip
away and go upstairs.
She mounted her table and stood looking out. {I}t was a wonderful
moment. There were floods of molten gold covering the west, as if a
glorious tide was sweeping over the world. A deep, rich yellow light
filled the air; the birds flying across the tops of the houses showed quite
black against it.
"It's a Splendid one," said Sara, softly, to herself. "It makes me feel
almost afraid--as if something strange was just going to happen. The
Splendid ones always make me feel like that."
She suddenly turned her head because she heard a sound a few yards
away from her. It was an odd sound like a queer little squeaky chattering.
It came from the window of the next attic. Someone had come to look at
the sunset as she had. There was a head and a part of a body emerging
from the skylight, but it was not the head or body of a little girl or a
housemaid; it was the picturesque white-swathed form and dark-faced,
gleaming-eyed, white-turbaned head of a native Indian man-servant--"a
Lascar," Sara said to herself quickly--and the sound she had heard came
from a small monkey he held in his arms as if he were fond of it, and
which was snuggling and chattering against his breast.
As Sara looked toward him he looked toward her. The first thing she
thought was that his dark face looked sorrowful and homesick. She felt
absolutely sure he had come up to look at the sun, because he had seen it
so seldom in England that he longed for a sight of it. She looked at him
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interestedly for a second, and then smiled across the slates. She had
learned to know how comforting a smile, even from a stranger, may be.
Hers was evidently a pleasure to him. His whole expression altered,
and he showed such gleaming white teeth as he smiled back that it was as
if a light had been illuminated in his dusky face. The friendly look in
Sara's eyes was always very effective when people felt tired or dull.
It was perhaps in making his salute to her that he loosened his hold on
the monkey. He was an impish monkey and always ready for adventure,
and it is probable that the sight of a little girl excited him. He suddenly